Posted by noa on February 23, 2003, at 16:32:45
In reply to motivation (noa?), posted by coral on February 23, 2003, at 7:29:31
WOW. That is amazing. How did you do all of that? I am really impressed!
As for me, I guess I can take pride in my one true accomplishment of late--I am a successful impetus! Too bad I cant impetus MYSELF to get something done!
Really, can you bottle some of what you've got in you and send it over? My house is a pig-sty. Really. I'm not exxagerating to say that it is truly chaotic.
My washing machine is still broken. I absolutely must do laundry for work this week, so it means going outside to the public washing machines. There are items of clothing all over the floor, in a amorphous mix of clean and dirty. I've been procrastinating that and a million other things, like getting rid of trash and recycling, doing some paperwork like getting insurance reimbursements before I am totally and completely out of cash, etc. etc. Not to mention the yet-to-be-unpacked boxes (from July!) and not being able to find anything (including the washing machine warranty!).
Argghhh.
But seriously, I am glad for you. If only I can make use of the inspiration.
I feel like I've forgotten how to live. That's the latest way I've thought of wording it. I mean, my depression is much better than it was, but I've forgotten how to live a normal life. I know what needs to be done, but can't remember how to mobilize myself to do it. This includes not only living in deteriorating conditions, not getting normal business of life stuff taken care of, etc, but also things like keeping up with friends, etc.
I get really anxious just thinking about it and spend most of my mental energy trying to ignore the mess and space out with tv, computer games, etc. But this is getting old, really old.
What color did you paint, and what do the curtains look like?
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