Posted by tina on January 20, 2003, at 13:17:59
In reply to Re: Still very lonely » tina, posted by shar on January 20, 2003, at 12:40:26
shar
thanks
you know, I could handle the depression if I had friends. Any friends. I mean people here close to me that I could hang out with. All I do is think back to when I was 17 and had a "posse" around me all the time. So many wanted to just be in my company because I was 'fun' and energetic. Since graduating from highschool, I have become more or a hermit, more introverted and shy, absolutely terrified of other people and the world outside my door. I don't even feel safe around my own family. I have lost every friend I've ever had due to my panic and anxiety because I can't go anywhere. The benzos don't work anymore, the AD's don't work anymore.
It's the anxiety that causes the depression. It isolates me, devastates me and imprisons me. I've been in this prison for 13 years. The anxiety only gets worse year after year and I become more and more alone and inactive.
I can't see a future anymore. I DONT WANT a future if it's just more of this.
poster:tina
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