Posted by Cam W. on April 28, 2002, at 19:10:39
In reply to Cam: Ditto what Judy1 said! Welcome. (nm), posted by Shar on April 28, 2002, at 15:04:12
I have been absent from my computer for the last few weeks. I am working 50 minutes out of town and doing 3 twelve hour shift in a row (it should decrease to 2 from here on in). Instead of driving home I have been spending the nights inbetween shifts at a motel. Therefore, no internet.
Besides, my mood has been incredibly low lately. My pdoc just added Wellbutrin to my regimen last week, so I am now having fun with the start-up side effects. The low energy and fuzzy head have made me feel "blah!" (good scientific term).
Also, my psychologist and pdoc have ganged up on me, and I am now not allowed to do anymore mental health research until I get my "headspace" figured out. I have agreed to this as over the past few years my research has turned into an ugly obsession. I can see that now.
I have come to the realization that I do not have to be the best at everything I do; information and knowledge are not wisdom. I am actually not supposed to be reading nor posting here. People will survive without me.
I am trying to turn my energy toward my family. I have been doing more "helper dad" sessions with my daughter's class. It is fun and the kids seem to like me (except they blabbed on me when I kissed one of the girls' moms in the hallway - long story, but innocent - it was the first thing the Grade 1s told Patti when she went with them for a field trip). Patti (my wife) and I even had a date last night.
I think I just need to figure out what I want in my life. I have to overcome my fear of success (I always seem to sabotage any attempt - eg. the gig at the Mental Health Clinic). It seems that I am afraid of being happy (another long story).
Anyway, I have been away for awhile; so, anything happening here? (ROTFLMAO)
Take care everyone, and I will sneak a look in every now and then. Love Cam
poster:Cam W.
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