Posted by Bob on November 10, 1999, at 21:55:31
In reply to "Just Do It", posted by Heidi on November 10, 1999, at 20:14:32
Sticking with the sports theme ...
If you're not making any yardage trying to punch it up the middle, maybe it's time for an end around.
Do you talk about this with your husband? Can he make the call for you? How about calling after hours -- will you get voice mail or a service where you can leave a message instead having any concern about talking with your pdoc right away? Put it in writing? Just show up at his office?
Taking that first step -- making the first apointment about a year ago -- was something you need to see as taking control, not surrendering it. The same with the second step, going back and making the "second" appointment.
I didn't want to surrender that control over to medications either. But I was deluding myself in thinking that I had any control in the first place. I was being controlled by my disorder. Delegating authority still means YOU are in control.
The same is true of bills for me, just like meds. I thought that *I* had to do them, that I had to have my checkbook balanced perfectly before I could spend any *real* money -- all sorts of little rituals and superstitions that kept me from paying anything on time. Then, I turned my credit cards over to a debt management firm and my student loans over to the US DOE, and now I have three bills that I can all pay electronically (which I think is just too cool), Amex being the third. Surrendering control over the details has given me back control over the big picture -- I've got enough courage from taking action and enough stability from the results of those actions that for the first time in my 19 years as an "adult" I might actually be able to come up with a monthly budget for the first time.
So, if you can't "just do it" by yourself, bring in your husband, leave a message, give someone else the power to take the second step for you.
Hang in there,
Bob
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