Posted by ruth on June 7, 1999, at 7:31:39
In reply to Serzone and rage...again, posted by Phil on June 5, 1999, at 20:45:21
Phil,
can totally relate, unfortuately. Had a terrible
weekend. Lots of crying, lots of feelings like I
wanted to pummel people with my fists. (I too am
normally pretty down to earth and laid back).
Criminy. I feel like I should at least give this
drug two weeks, but don't know if I can stand it.
Maybe I just don't know how to deal with my emotions
anymore after 4 years on emotion numbing prozac.
I don't know. I'm f@@@ing tired of it too--I"ve
been trying to find the right AD for 9 months now
and I'm totally worn out, frustrated, depressed and
angry that I have a disease that's so catch 22.
Can't live on the drugs, can't live off. I know
I have to come to peace with this and accept it,
but right now I seem stuck in a most unfruitful state
of mind of "why me?". I know I'll probably get
back on some apathy producing ssri and I won't feel
mad anymore, in fact, I wont' feel much of anything.
And that thought pisses me off too. But what am
I gonna do? Walk around feeling like my life is
worthless 24 hours a day, 7 days a week?
arughghghg!!
(by the way, one of the things I did like about
serzone, despite all the other really horrible
stuff, was that I didn't feel social trepidation)
poster:ruth
thread:7087
URL: http://www.dr-bob.org/babble/19991028/msgs/7130.html