Posted by Dee on October 5, 1999, at 22:51:05
In reply to WHY?, posted by Help on October 4, 1999, at 20:25:24
> All Alone.
Strangest thing I've found: This is not a fact. With my 20/20 hindsight I can tell that it was not that I was unloved, or able to give or receive love, that there is nothing inherently unlovable in me. It is an inbalance of my neurotransimitters that makes me think so. THIS IS NOT A FACT! It is just a feeling, a ghost that has come alive in my head and makes me feel bad about myself. But that ghost is stuck in MY mind, other people cannot see it, or listen to it. Mine is gone with medication, and I am stunned as I suddenly notice that I am having converstaions with people! Like I never thought I could, that people are starting to call my house to have a chat. Just now I sat down with someone to have a cup of tea and a long talk, after spending all winter insolating, alone. Thinking there cannot possibly be anything for me out there... Nothing, nothing at all. The ghost still occasionally raises its ugly voise but I mostly find its sqwaks impotent and pitiful.
I've found that we are never alone...
and you are not alone, not his moment, we are all with you.
Love
Dee
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thread:12554
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