Posted by saintjames on September 6, 1999, at 15:43:15
In reply to Newsflash: Noa emerges from her apartment, posted by Noa on September 6, 1999, at 13:47:24
> I actually made it outside, showered and dressed. Went and bought some birthday presents for my nieces. Didn't enjoy the process as I used to, didn't put much thought into it. Felt a bit low on ideas. But went to a good toy store and looked around until I found something adequate for each. Actually went over to their house to give them their presents (about a week late), but they weren't home. Made plans (!) with my sister to bring over the presents this evening.
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> Then came home, craving, get this, those little yellow tags that read "new". Only one now, kind of a let down. Am I getting addicted to babble?
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> Something interesting happened when I was getting dressed. I put my pants on, and felt something on my leg. I touched it through the pants with my hand and it felt something like a fuzzy wad of bunched up scotch tape. For a millisecond, I thought it was a bug, then calmed myself into thinking it was a sticky label or something, then it started to vibrate!!!! I screamed and got out of the pants as soon as I could, and looked inside and there was a big fat bumblebee staring up at me. I managed to free him outside a few minutes later. I don't know if bumblebees--the big, fuzzy type--sting. But I feel so incredible lucky not to have been stung if they do. I have been stung by yellowjacks and know it is pretty awful, but have no experience with the bumblebee. Any way, I thought to myself, what meaning can I make of this unusual event? I am not a beleiver in "signs" or anything like that, but sometimes it helps to play out a metaphor. Any ideas?James here....
Yes they do sting ! As a kid I disturbed an underground nest and had several fly up my shirt.
I got like 7 stings. With me when I am depressed
I am hypersensitive to anything that disturbes my
coccon.You are so right about not expecting the meds to do everything. I find that if I can put myself in
better environments the meds really kick it.When I am house bound with depression, I try to take small steps, like going out in the yard first. Then drive to the library, ect. each day doing a little more. I hate dealing with the public when depressed so I plan things I can go and do w/o having to interact, at first ( I don't count driving thru Mc D's as interaction !) It also helps having friends who understand depression, it is ez'er to go see them.
Welcome to the outside world, Noa ! We have all been there at one time (house bound) and we are here for you. perhaps some other people on the list have some other ideas and good small steps to take that have worked for them.
james
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