Posted by Dee on September 5, 1999, at 22:05:06
I'm feeling that I am starting to cope with depression, but now I seem to be getting these fits of anxiety no matter what I try.
I just started with trazodone (I am also taking Serzone) and I am having this not-able-to-breathe kind of attacks. In fact, I missed a day in my new job because I couldn't leave the house this morning. I cannot say if this is my weekly cycle, or the new medicine.
This feel different from the anxiety I am used to, this is more physical... Something that I sort of observe, and hope to get over with, but I haven't panicked on this one. But I get so confused - since I've started on medicins everything I feel is kind of changing, like I would need to learn a whole new set of feelings, none of which I am familiar with. So most of the time I don't know what it is I am feeling, just that I am feeling something.
Today my mind's been on high gear, almost a little manic, getting all kinds of ideas that I think are just exquisite. My body's been on low, I feel like I walk in slow motion, and I feel exhausted although I haven't really done anything.
Then when there was a dog barking in the back yard and I went to the window, a thought flashed through my mind, a dream almost, that I could jump... (Not to worry.. I am not the jumping kind, and if I ever find myself in that spot I'll get the help) The strange thing about that was that I wasn't in pain... just sort of tempted to get it over with, sort of like stopping by the woods... I am wondering about that, I haven't felt like that before - I'll see my therapist Tuesday, I'll bring it to her.
I am just going on and on... Guess that's the manic gear that I mentioned. All I really wanted to know if there is a link with trazodone and these things going on, in which case I'd stop taking it.
Thanx
Dee
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