Posted by Ruth (the other one) on August 3, 1999, at 20:08:03
In reply to Reaching Out...Looking for support, posted by Roo (ruth) on August 2, 1999, at 14:16:16
I can only echo what others have said. You can't question your right to want it all. Maybe when we're at our most depressed we are content to just have the depression lift a little. But when we feel better we want our lives back, and that includes sexually.
As for the medication trials, I know of no good way of making peace with having to deal with them. I try to tell myself that it is just part of the reality of treating this awful illness. But I too get both frustrated and scared at the prospect.
I guess all I can really offer is support as you try these paths. I hope you will feel it and that it will help
> Hi,
>
> I just went to the pharmacologist about AD's and
> sexual side effects. She said since I've already
> tried 2 of the SSRI's and had sexual side effects,
> and two of the newer AD's, Wellbutrin and Serzone didn't
> work for my depression, that our first course of action
> could be A) Try Remeron or B) try a TCA
> I asked her about adding something on to prozac (since
> it works for me so well otherwise) and she said most
> of those options are very iffy and cut back on
> spontaneity.
> Because I'm really scared of people's reports on Remeron
> adding on lots of weight really quickly, I opted for
> the disipramine. I also took it for a month about
> 8 years ago--can't remember much about whether it affected
> me sexually, but I don't remember gaining weight on
> disipramine.
> I don't know....
> What's my point here....
> This may sound stupid, but a part of me feels selfish
> for pursuing this Ad that dosent' have sexual side effects
> thing so agressively. I feel
> like I should just be happy that my drug works for
> my depression and shut up about it. I feel like it's
> "bad" that I want everything. But I do. Is that wrong?
>
> I feel scared to be on the road of experimentation again
> after just getting stable and content with the prozac.
>
> Maybe that's my point. Feeling kind of scared and unsure.
> I know I have to just keep trying until something works,
> it's just such a scarey process, never knowing what's
> going to happen, how a drug is going to effect me. I'm
> mostly spooked b/c wellbutrin and serzone made me feel
> so BAD, just awful...
>
> Can anyone relate?
poster:Ruth (the other one)
thread:9499
URL: http://www.dr-bob.org/babble/19990726/msgs/9561.html