Posted by Donut on July 29, 1999, at 14:51:06
In reply to To Kate and Donut, posted by Racer on July 29, 1999, at 1:54:01
> Thank you both. It is nice to know that some people still care.
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> Donut,
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> Whatever you do, remember that those voices telling you you're not doing enough for yourself are the voices that come from depression. I see my own depression as a discrete entity, once which carries around a tape/video recorder, so that it can play back all the bad things in my life. My job, when I'm up to it, is to replace those tapes with healthier images.
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> As for my mother, for the last ten years, I've taken her shopping every Sunday. I've put up with her craziness (which is all based on mild depression and insecurities), given her emotional support, and put up with her need to go to ten different stores to get six items, to save ten cents by driving 35 miles. At this point, I've earned a few months of rent payments. That's the way I look at it. Considering I have given up my one day a week off work for ten years, she's only giving me money, I'm giving her myself.
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> And Kate, I'm glad you understand about my baby. The vet is coming this week. She may be going blind. On top of everything else in my life, I may lose my significant other.
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> Too much all at once.
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> But thanks for the support, and back atcha. Let me know your email, I have a few ideas that I've come up with having had to go through it myself...WOW-I read the above and thought I wrote it. Our cat has renal disease and I have to give her subq fluids twice a week. But she is so important to me. My mom totally does not understand that . I know I cannot ever blame my mom for my depression but I just wish sometimes that she would understand.
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