Posted by Racer on July 13, 1999, at 23:55:19
In reply to Re: What to do next?, posted by barbara on July 13, 1999, at 19:57:17
> Thank you for responding. part of my problem is that I am also social phobic. The very thought of being in a social situation of any kind with people I don't know, absolutely terrifies me. This has really put a strain on my relationship with my husband and children, as they don't understand how I feel. > Hi Barbara,
Try to find out if there are any groups in your area, anyway. Make your husband take you, if that helps, or call someone whom you trust. It really can make a big difference if you can find a group that works for you.How do I know? I made my ex-boyfriend take me to my first meeting at the group I go to, and he had to drag me. I was crying, quivering in the corner, trying to hide behind him, generally not feeling as though I should be allowed to interact with the human race. At the time, I had decided to end my life, because the depression was so very bad, and nothing would ever be worth the cost. Well, the first thing I learned was that the doctor I was seeing was not doing her job. The next thing that got drilled into me, with the best intentions, was that drugs really could improve my outlook. When I finally spoke up, half the group had something to say about what I was going through, and most of them said about the same thing: "If the drugs aren't working, try another. There is such a thing as relief."
That seems simple enough, but at the time, it certainly wasn't. At the time, I had a dozen reasons for wanting the drugs not to work, because then my decision would be justified. Now, though, from the support I've gotten from the group, I can tell you that I don't WANT to die, I just NEED relief. One day soon I hope to find it.
Good luck to you.
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