Posted by ruth on July 9, 1999, at 7:25:24
In reply to Re: is this depression, posted by JohnL again on July 9, 1999, at 3:51:37
Ella,
Just wanted you to know that I can totally relate
to your feelings. They sound a lot how my depression
will usually manifest itself. I will tend to
obsess about things that just increase my misery.
I have a wonderful boyfriend too, and if I'm gripped
by depression, I"ll wonder why he's with me, imagine
so many other women who would be so much "better" for
him, how "lucky" I am to have him--and this dosen't
feel like the nice kind of lucky, more like the bad sort
(like a grateful little wretch, and I can't see
that he too is lucky to have ME). I get frustrated
because I can't feel happy about anything when there's
obviously so much to be happy about all around me.So...just mainly wanted you to know I can relate,
and that it sounds a lot like depression to my ears.
But I don't know you, or your situation, so who
knows, maybe your fears and feelings have some
validity. I think seeing a therapist is a great
idea--it's certainly helped me a lot. Also, with
regards to medication--it's done me a world of good.
I feel like I have so much more perspective, and
I don't spiral down into those negative thoughts
all the time anymore. Beating down the demons all
the time can be so draining, and damaging to the
self esteem.I hope you figure out the right thing to do for
yourself, and can find a good therapist to help
you with these sorts of decisions--I'll be thinking
about you :-)Ruth
poster:ruth
thread:8460
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