Posted by SB on July 3, 1999, at 13:32:19
In reply to Re: paxil, ritalin, add, & addiction, posted by Cynthia on July 2, 1999, at 22:29:16
Thank you for your response and concern Cynthia. I am at a crucial stage in my life where I can take this ADD by the horns and deal with it with some support, or I can just continue to follow the same self-destructing patterns I always have. I truly think I have found a mentor in my psychiatrist and feel like I can tell him anything. We have only had two visits but I have given him a pretty good view into my mind. He was reluctant to prescribe Ritalin for me and we agreed to a random drug screening for other substances. You see, this Ritalin does help with impulsiveness but it is tricky. My problem with substances is I can never have enough. As a matter of fact, I am too far into this supply already and am turning it over to a friend to hold for me. When the days pass and I can resume scheduled doseage, she will bring my daily supply to work for me. I really believe in the future I will be able to deal with it alone, but for now I need all the support I can get. I live with my younger brother and he is just like me. He has ADD and a natural fascination with pharmacology and psychology. He also abuses his monthly supply of Ritalin. I know a tough road lies ahead and I will try and deal with it. Thanks again for responding and keep me informed of your situation. SB
> >I can definately relate. I'm on Dexedrine for ADD, and do I love that medication. I like it more for getting rid of my depression than for helping with my ADD. Whenever I begin a new medication I am super sensitive to it, and then I develop, very quickly, a tolerance for it. I started at 5 mg, and am now doing 15mg a day and not getting the same effect as the 5 mg had given me initially. I'm worried about what could happen in the future - becoming completely tolerant to it, taking too much of it, not being able to get any from a doctor, having troubles getting off of it. Right now if I don't take it while I'm in bed in the morning, I can't get out of bed. I'm also anorexic and dexedrine kills my appetite. Major bonus for that mental illness. To sum it up SB, I love Dexedrine and it scares the crap out of me. One psychiatrist said he wouldn't give it to me, so then I went to a family doctor to get some. Sometimes I have fantasies of going to like 5 family doctors just to stock up on it.
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> I have no plans to abuse it, but my 'love' of it and the severe anxiety I feel when I think about not getting any more scares me. I have to find a psychiatrist who I can tell this to and not feel afraid they are going to take it away. Maybe you need someone like this too. Let me know how you're doing.
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> Cynthia
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