Posted by DL on October 27, 1998, at 22:14:35
In reply to Re: Update, posted by DL on October 26, 1998, at 23:17:39
You are really very perceptive. I didn't actually say anywhere that I was bringing every last thing home with me!! But I do that. It is unrealistic to think I will have time to do it all, but I bring it home anyway. I guess some cog-beh therapy would be good. I have never experienced it but perhaps if someone helped me to look at what would happen if I didn't finish things I would see that the world wouldn't end. It is so strongly programed into me that it's hard to get around it. And I can't blame it ALL on the director.
The speech thing is really bothering me. I can tell others are noticing it. I don't think it is related to any medication because I remember it starting about the time I originally went for help (about 2 1/2 years ago) before I had any medication. But there have been times when I did not notice it much. I think that was when I routinely took the klonopin. It's almost like a short circuit or disconnection of messages from the brain. I have always had trouble with clenching and grinding my teeth (even as a little girl) --even that is getting worse. I had to have a bite guard made for when I sleep and when I get up my jaw is frequently "locked" shut in a muscle spasm. Are these part of the same thing? Is it just anxiety? Or could this be something I should have checked? It happens all the time now.
Thanks for being there and for respecting and supporting me. I see the MD next Monday. The Remeron will run out right after that. I think it is really helping with sleep since I am sleeping and not taking the klonopin.
Thanks again. Still hoping for EMDR etc.
poster:DL
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