Posted by pandey_m on May 13, 1999, at 15:35:46
In reply to Re: 5 months on tianeptine, posted by andrew on May 13, 1999, at 13:33:57
> > > Wow, you are abusing a lot of drugs. Don't you think this hurts your long term mental well being?
> >
> > Andrew,
> > tough one. I'll try to respond to the best of my ability. The summarised answer is at the end.
> >
> Pandey,
> I am not a doctor but from what you haveAndrew,
Thank you for your sensitive post. When 13 months ago I started amineptine I and my wife agreed that the medium-term target was to stop all medication. I had forgotten this somewhere down the line; thank you for reminding me.
I 'know' that I have an addictive personality; I cannot help knowing it because it is in all my psychological reports (worded like "scored significantly higher than average on dependency" - which includes emotional dependency and addictive personality. Aside - I sometimes tend to think of psychotropic molecules as people I am emotionally involved with - Mary Jane and Rita Lynn et al.) Of course that sort of 'knowing' is again fooling myself -"I know, so I am safe". I often also feel that "unlike so many of my friends who either went on to shooting heroin and died or screwed up their mind and body with crack and stuff, I am still in reasonable physical health and can manage fairly challenging mental work, so I must be tougher". I have this feeling today that I might be totally wrong.
Tianeptine (Stablon) is however a very safe and fairly promising molecule, with no abuse potential. My first post to this thread was a response to a request for description of personal experience with Tianeptine. In that post I did just that, the other things came in because I don't see the point of describing some "platonic Tianeptine not connected with anything else". I request other readers to remember this. (My second post, however, was a polemic with Andrew.)
Look, there are studies which say that the main benefit of Tianeptine is long-term - you've got to try it for at least a year - it is supposed to give you some mood stability without the problems
with mood-stabilizers.I'll try to stay off the hashish and the piracetam, the Ritalin, phenytoin and the propranolol (all of which my pdoc strongly disapproves of anyway - he said I have a brittle personality and might have frank psychotic episodes or real deep depression if I am not careful). The doc is comfortable with Tianeptine and Amineptine so I'll continue that (and try not to snort Amineptine - I haven't told the doc about that. [But he might have read that post by now!])
Thank you again. I keep losing my way half-way through projects unless they are software development projects.
PS - On Sunday I am off to the Himalaya mountains ,and off the internet, for a month. Regards.
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