Posted by cait on March 19, 1999, at 21:26:04
I have read all of the posts to one person's call for help. I have cried out for help so many times--but my calls in the 1970s were in the form of slitting my wrists, overdosing on street drug (resulted in 2-wk coma), overdosing on valium (stomach pumped) and finally--almost 20-years later-- sitting in my kitchen for HOURS holding my revolver. What stopped me that time? Guilt.
So, yes, getting through a day, then a week, a month, a year CAN give one strength to push aside the Darkness. Yet I know in my heart that if I don't find "MY CURE" I will again enter that Dark Place.
Who out there will try to help me? I cannot go for inpatient treatment, I am addicted to both a stimulant and lorazepam, and I am responsible for the fulltime care of my brain damaged parent.
I am afraid this time around because I HAVE to be the 'caregiver.' But, who cares for me?
poster:cait
thread:3845
URL: http://www.dr-bob.org/babble/19990501/msgs/3845.html