Posted by David K. on January 22, 1999, at 18:38:07
In reply to Re: Stashes, Tangents, NPBR , posted by Chris A. on January 22, 1999, at 18:07:07
I had a hollow-point 9mm bullet that I swiped from my brother, a policeman. That was my version of a "stash," I guess. I eventually gave it to my doctor, and regretted it ever since.
Funny thing is, I never had a gun to put it in ...
(Although I guess just being "one step closer" was satisfying enough. For some reason I'd be afraid to go buy a gun & bullets for fear that the saleperson would know my intentions. Like it would even MATTER if they knew.
Sometimes I guess my suicidal thoughts are like an itch I have to scratch ... I don't think I'm ever "crying out for help" (no one ever knows about it except my doctor) and I haven't been really SERIOUS about it in a long time. But I still think "Maybe today I'll just ...."
It's sort of good to know that others feel this way, too, though.
poster:David K.
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