Posted by Nancy on April 11, 1999, at 10:11:54
In reply to Re: Follow up for mila, posted by mila on April 11, 1999, at 0:27:12
I totally understand, Peter. When my manic depression hits, it takes complete control. My life is no longer my own. I can not live the way I would choose to live, do what I'm capble of doing, when manic depression takes ahold.
I hope this new doctor helps you, right away. Otherwise, you may have to get on Medicaid.
> > How about you? Have you made the decision to go back to school yet? I hope the feedback you've gotten has been useful.
> hey peter -thanks for asking. I'm probably going to defer admission for a year. In the meantime I have made an appointment with a new -and very expensive- doctor (I have no insurance!!!) I'm hoping he will help me get better so that I may start grad sschool eventually. I'm just too scared to enroll right now. Everytime I think about it, i experience severe anxiety. I don't think I can live on my own away from my family. i have no support besides them. I remember living off campus as an undergraduate. I would come home to a single room and sit on my bed and get all panicky and shake. I would call home and cry on the phone until finally one day my parents had to come get me and I had to drop out of school. Even now I experience constant anxiety and shakiness -to the point where I can do nothing except sit on the couch and rock myself. So I am clearly not fit for grad school. Hope I end up there someday though. This is all so depressing!
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