Posted by racer on December 25, 1998, at 15:43:42
This is so awful. It's the first Christmas I haven't spent with my mother, and I am acutely suicidal and there's no one I can turn to. I've tried, I've called friends to please help me, I've asked for specific things, for someone to spend an hour just being with me, or talk to me about somehting unrelated to the depression, but no one will do it. I just can't cope any more, and the local crisis line just keeps saying, "come into the hospital" which is not a good option. The county hospital is just a warehouse, no therepy, last time they locked me up there, I didn't eat at all while I was there, and no one noticed or did anything. They kept after me to "do this, do that, contribute to group, etc" and I was barely able to get out of bed, betweent he depresson and the not eating.
Please, isn't there anything I can do? Can't anything help me? I don't watn to die, I just can't stand to live with this pain. help me
poster:racer
thread:1720
URL: http://www.dr-bob.org/babble/19981201/msgs/1720.html