Posted by DL on September 10, 1998, at 23:52:15
In reply to Re: Response to Toby, posted by Toby on September 10, 1998, at 16:14:21
Maybe you can guess how much this correspondence has meant to me--but I don't think so. I don't know what drives you to come to this site and volunteer your time and patient expertise--but it has helped to keep me going.. I sense that at sometime in your life you have been some of the painful places I have been or you would not have the understanding you so freely give. If you were within driving distance I would find a way to you.
I think I did write for the EMDR list for NH at some point but I can't seem to find it. I live in seacoast NH and the drive to the MA border is about 30 min. I will write for the list again, but it will take a while to come. If you have names to suggest I will call them. I would like to try it soon. Your descrption has helped me a lot. Beyond the father who came home from WWII and terrorized me, and the physically abusive husband, there have been many other traumas that I have pushed below the surface. I feel like I am trapped by these things and can't find my way out. Just typing this has the tears running slowly down my face.
Thank you for prioritizing the suggestions. It really helped a lot. I have an appt with the psychiatrist on the 21st and then won't see him for another 2 mos probably. I would like to find someone for EMDR soon so I can see if it will help and then know what to say to the MD. Since you suggest not trying any meds till EMDR, I'm not quite sure what to say to him on the 21st. Do psychiatrists do,or know about EMDR? Should I discuss Buspar or Remeron at this time if I haven't found someone for EMDR yet? I always feel that those quick visits are a waste of insurance money. And is everyone equally qualified to do EMDR, or are there diff levels of training?
At one point you mentioned EMDR was not hypnosis. In your experience does hypnosis help people with problems like mine? When I was in the throws of PPdepression 19 years ago the GYN tried to teach me self-hypnosis in a 20 min office visit. I hadn't slept in weeks and I went home more desperate than ever. When I called the next day at the end of my rope, his suggestion was to relax and go have sex with my husband! I will NEVER forget that. I will always remember being ready to really give up and trying to get help--but it was like screaming into an empty world--no one was willing to listen.
Once again, you are a godsend. Reading your messages has helped to crystalize some of the things in me where I might be able to find help.It is now 1AM and I get up at 6AM. Maybe I can sleep....
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