Psycho-Babble Medication Thread 293393

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first clean xmas

Posted by squids on December 25, 2003, at 17:46:43

This is the first clean xmas I've hae in god knows how many years. My usual routine was to take everything I could find: Nyquil, valium, xanax, vicodins, and heroin to induce unconscioussness or semi conscious for several days. Today I admit I was tempted more than once, but stopped myself from taking any action.

This morning I had to get up early to go visit a friend in jail. Wonderful way to spend xmas morning. But I decided instead of hating it, I would wish everyone a merry xmas - no matter how much of an a**hole they are to me. I think it was a pretty good ideaa for my personal state of mind. And then I talked to my incarcerated friend and cheered him up a great deal by visiting him today. That made me feel really good and right now I have no desire to do drugs or be unconscious. In fact I think I'll go out and see if I can make someone else's day.

Crazy aint it...

 

Re: first clean xmas

Posted by nicky847 on December 25, 2003, at 19:37:26

In reply to first clean xmas, posted by squids on December 25, 2003, at 17:46:43

Squids--
That sounds awesome..sincere congratulations to you and hope you find all the strength and joy you need to stay clean..
> This is the first clean xmas I've hae in god knows how many years. My usual routine was to take everything I could find: Nyquil, valium, xanax, vicodins, and heroin to induce unconscioussness or semi conscious for several days. Today I admit I was tempted more than once, but stopped myself from taking any action.
>
> This morning I had to get up early to go visit a friend in jail. Wonderful way to spend xmas morning. But I decided instead of hating it, I would wish everyone a merry xmas - no matter how much of an a**hole they are to me. I think it was a pretty good ideaa for my personal state of mind. And then I talked to my incarcerated friend and cheered him up a great deal by visiting him today. That made me feel really good and right now I have no desire to do drugs or be unconscious. In fact I think I'll go out and see if I can make someone else's day.
>
> Crazy aint it...

 

That's great (nm)

Posted by linkadge on December 26, 2003, at 6:33:39

In reply to Re: first clean xmas, posted by nicky847 on December 25, 2003, at 19:37:26

 

Re: That's great

Posted by Sebastian on December 26, 2003, at 7:48:14

In reply to That's great (nm), posted by linkadge on December 26, 2003, at 6:33:39

You are the natural anti-depressant!

 

Re: That's great

Posted by squids on December 26, 2003, at 16:07:35

In reply to Re: That's great, posted by Sebastian on December 26, 2003, at 7:48:14

Thanks for the support, I really needed it. On the way back from visiting a friend in jail I saw a bunch of junkies and realized, that was me a few months ago. Forget returning to that life. I have a college education and experience I can put to beneficial work. I do admit the temptation was there, especially in San Francisco where certain areas are like drug supermarkets...

Mike

 

Re: first clean xmas squids

Posted by noa on December 27, 2003, at 9:40:52

In reply to first clean xmas, posted by squids on December 25, 2003, at 17:46:43

Congratulations on the achievement. I hope you continue to have success in staying clean. You were alert and out in the world and brought some companionship and cheer to someone who really really needed it. You should feel good about yourself!

 

Re: first clean xmas squids

Posted by KimberlyDi on December 29, 2003, at 17:02:50

In reply to first clean xmas, posted by squids on December 25, 2003, at 17:46:43

Isn't it great? You're doing fabulous. I remember my first sober xmas after 1997's "the year from hell". stable emotions, secure job, renewed ties with family, making amends, buying xmas presents for others... i didn't isolate, ashamed, self-medicating to drown my self-hatred.

Congrats

> This is the first clean xmas I've hae in god knows how many years. My usual routine was to take everything I could find: Nyquil, valium, xanax, vicodins, and heroin to induce unconscioussness or semi conscious for several days. Today I admit I was tempted more than once, but stopped myself from taking any action.
>
> This morning I had to get up early to go visit a friend in jail. Wonderful way to spend xmas morning. But I decided instead of hating it, I would wish everyone a merry xmas - no matter how much of an a**hole they are to me. I think it was a pretty good ideaa for my personal state of mind. And then I talked to my incarcerated friend and cheered him up a great deal by visiting him today. That made me feel really good and right now I have no desire to do drugs or be unconscious. In fact I think I'll go out and see if I can make someone else's day.
>
> Crazy aint it...

 

Re: first clean xmas --congrats squids

Posted by m0nger on December 29, 2003, at 23:59:54

In reply to first clean xmas, posted by squids on December 25, 2003, at 17:46:43

That's awesome d00d :) I just had my 7th clean Xmas. Not bragging tho, it wasn't that easy, actually. Xmas eve was okay, but xmas day i was almost in tears all day, actually did cry a bit in the car on my way home from visting my mother. Not sure why either, couldn't exactly put my finger on it. I ended the day tho, by doing something similar to your visiting a friend in jail, i went to visit a friend who is in a half-way house, and that seemed to help end the day on a good note.
I used to deal with xmas just like you described, however. Getting wasted on everything i could get my hands on.
Since you sound so similar to me, i am curious what meds, if any, you are using now (I'm assuming you are, since you're posting on this board). If you don't mind my asking. I haven't been on any meds for over 5 years now, was on a few my couple years clean, then stopped taking them to see what would happen. I survived obviously, but this last year has been sorta rough, specially the last part, so went to see a doc before things got any worse. Was going several days at a time without showering, house is a massive pig sty, etc, etc, and i started thinking about using heroin again. 7 year itch? Haha, who knows, but i am glad i overcame my reluctance to try meds. I mean how stupid would it be to not give meds a try again, but use street drugs instead? heh

Anyway, lets hope our New Years Eve goes well too. I definetly plan to get out and be with some people (non drug abusers) that night.


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