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Posted by rainbutterfly on October 16, 2006, at 20:37:18
Black and white thinking.
When I am triggered I do that to a disgusting extent.
Thanks ()( Bob )() for the place here... it has helped me see some of my patterns. They aren't pretty. I deserve prettier patterns to match my wings.
Posted by rainbutterfly on October 16, 2006, at 22:13:39
In reply to Yuck., posted by rainbutterfly on October 16, 2006, at 20:37:18
I know why harsh judgements together with being/feeling rejected and confused trigger me so much. My father. So........................... Get over it, butterfly. I intend to.
Yuck. That word again. What is it about this place that allows (?) me to type all this shyt, the butterfly asks herself. IDK but I'm hoping I will not have time to post here, very soon. DH has threatened to ban me from the computer. He is too tolerant of my crap..... he doesn't follow through. That is a big realisation for me. I had not thought of that .... he probably has very loose boundaries. We get on great together and hardly ever argue. But he is too tolerant of me. I think I have found one of the tools/keys that I have been missing. (thanks zh) Now, butterfly. Time for action. Spread those wings and fly. It will hurt even more at first. It might hurt a lot for ever. (Things can't get much worse than they are now though... I hope) But you've got to do it. You can change.
The Eagles. Get over it. Cool song. It's not so easy though, it takes work. And I do have the ability to do the work.
I might be back, in about a week. But not so talkative. It doesn't suit a gentle, delicate butterfly to say much. I know that is partly conditioning from my childhood. But I have those defences for a reason. And when I talk/type etc. I could be doing something more productive, to me.
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