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Posted by AdaGrace on April 14, 2005, at 18:14:15
16 More Days
Until the anniversary of your touch.
The rememberance is still so clear in my head
my heart
my soul16 More Days
I anticipate the return of the familiar feelings.
The love we shared, or was that just me.
The friendship bond between us.
The laughter.
The tearful goodbyes.
The promise of more to come.16 More Days
Until the anniversary of the best sex I ever had.
But it was much more than sex to me.
It was the first time in my 40 years I have ever made love.
Beautiful, searing, soul searching love.16 More Days
I remember that magical weekend like it was yesterday.
I feel the same way.
How could you not?
Always and Forever You Hold My HeartA little too tightly though, crushed, squeezed, mutilated is more like it, isn't it?
Posted by AdaGrace on April 14, 2005, at 18:15:20
In reply to 16 More Da ys, posted by AdaGrace on April 14, 2005, at 18:14:15
Posted by AdaGrace on April 17, 2005, at 19:48:58
In reply to Re: Notice Days is Broken? Interesting, isn't it. (nm) » AdaGrace, posted by AdaGrace on April 14, 2005, at 18:15:20
I want to do something so bad. Call, send an e-mail, send an instant message.......But I know he won't respond. It's just so sad. An unwavering love that knows no end, and yet unreturned..........I hate myself, I hate him.
Posted by Susan47 on April 17, 2005, at 20:44:56
In reply to Re: 13 Days and Counting...Can I make it?, posted by AdaGrace on April 17, 2005, at 19:48:58
IMO you should do it and make it very very bad-*ss for him. Don't feel bad about spewing. THink about it, edit it, change it, make it lighter, harder, whatever you need to do, then Send It.
Posted by damos on April 17, 2005, at 22:14:11
In reply to Re: 13 Days and Counting...Can I make it?, posted by Susan47 on April 17, 2005, at 20:44:56
Anytime I think of you ADA, I see Veronica Hamel in Hill Street Blues. An unbelievable combination of sophistication, style, sexy sassiness, vulnerabilty and strength, and pretty damn gorgeous to boot! His loss.
Posted by AdaGrace on April 18, 2005, at 13:46:33
In reply to Re: 13 Days and Counting...Can I make it?, posted by Susan47 on April 17, 2005, at 20:44:56
What good does venting do if you know the recipient will not ever respond. Besides, I've told him a million times in the past how much I love/hate him and how much I hurt over his actions. There really isn't anything left to say.
Posted by AdaGrace on April 18, 2005, at 13:53:29
In reply to Re: 13 Days and Counting...Can I make it? » Susan47, posted by damos on April 17, 2005, at 22:14:11
I'm sorta embarassed by your post, if you only knew how far away from her image I was. But thanks for that anyway. I think I'll dye my hair tonight.......Hmmm
Posted by Damos on April 18, 2005, at 19:46:51
In reply to Re: 13 Days and Counting...Can I make it? » damos, posted by AdaGrace on April 18, 2005, at 13:53:29
Sorry, I apologise, I didn't mean to embarrass you. I'm sure you've got it all over her in so many ways IRL.
Posted by Shame on April 20, 2005, at 14:03:57
In reply to Re: 13 Days and Counting...Can I make it? » damos, posted by AdaGrace on April 18, 2005, at 13:53:29
Whenever I read Ada's name, all I can think of is Lady Ada Lovelace.I’m sure you wear fewer corsets than Lady Ada Lovelace, an 1800's mathematician considered to be the first 'computer programmer'. She has a computer language named after her. Not too shabby.
My mental picture of you goes something like this :
http://www.agnesscott.edu/lriddle/women/ada2.jpg
At least your a proper Lady. Brainy too. :)
Sorry. Just something lame I had to add. Hope this doesn't embarass you in any way.
Posted by Susan47 on April 20, 2005, at 14:56:39
In reply to Re: 13 Days and Counting...Can I make it? » AdaGrace, posted by Shame on April 20, 2005, at 14:03:57
Beauty, Brains and Breeding, no doubt?
Posted by AdaGrace on April 21, 2005, at 22:56:25
In reply to Re: 13 Days and Counting...Can I make it? » Shame, posted by Susan47 on April 20, 2005, at 14:56:39
It doesn't matter how good you feel about yourself. When you meet someone and they make you feel wonderful.........and then take that away, it's like the bottom drops out of the world.
Posted by Susan47 on April 22, 2005, at 7:22:25
In reply to Re: 13 Days and Counting...Can I make it? » Susan47, posted by AdaGrace on April 21, 2005, at 22:56:25
Posted by AdaGrace on April 22, 2005, at 11:41:34
In reply to 16 More Da ys, posted by AdaGrace on April 14, 2005, at 18:14:15
Here I am counting the days to the time that will mark an aniversary of something only I cherish. How silly is that? Do you think he's down there missing me, thinking of me, remembering what next weekend means? Do you think he even remembers any of it, least of all me? How could I have been such a fool?
Posted by sunny10 on April 22, 2005, at 14:04:33
In reply to Re: This is just so pathetic, posted by AdaGrace on April 22, 2005, at 11:41:34
you are not alone.
(((((((((((AdaGrace)))))))))
I wish I had more support to offer you, dear.... My "supportive" resources seem to be dwindling right now, but I have been thinking of you, even in this state of self-preservation...
kisses,
sunny10
Posted by AdaGrace on April 22, 2005, at 23:54:59
In reply to Re: I think we've all been there, AdaGrace, posted by sunny10 on April 22, 2005, at 14:04:33
If only I could turn back time. Make things right. Be who I need to be in order to deserve the love i crave. I am so ashamed that I am not that person. I want you to know that I have been thinking of you as well. Worried about you even. I can only hope you are surviving the best you can........
Posted by sunny10 on April 25, 2005, at 10:26:47
In reply to Re: Oh Sunny » sunny10, posted by AdaGrace on April 22, 2005, at 23:54:59
Posted by AdaGrace on April 28, 2005, at 7:50:18
In reply to 16 More Da ys, posted by AdaGrace on April 14, 2005, at 18:14:15
And I sit here still as devestated as I was last summer when it came to pass that he was with someone else. Still totally devestated and terribly empty.
Noone seems to be able to fill the void in my life that he created.
You have to understand, we talked to each other almost every day for 4 years. Hours at a time, often 3or 4 times a day. It was like a marriage in so may ways.
The emptyness now is being filled with drugs sex and rock and roll, and it's not helping.
I just want to talk to him
I want him to admit to me that he lied when he said he loved me, when he said he would never leave me, when he said he would wait forever for me, when he said I meant more to him than anything else in the world, more than his own life.
How cruel to say those things and not mean them.
How very cruel indeed.
Posted by sunny10 on April 28, 2005, at 11:29:27
In reply to Re: It's here. Tomorrow it is here., posted by AdaGrace on April 28, 2005, at 7:50:18
I have heard those same lies; spent that kind of time.
I was devastated, too, AdaGrace. For a very long time.
The only comfort I can offer is that the pain does eventually ease.
((((((((((((((((((AdaGrace))))))))))))))))))))
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