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Posted by Toph on October 31, 2004, at 14:40:54
Wrestling at the Sink
Like punching a patronizing time clock
I execute an act of pharmacological faith
So that this fractured brain
Can function undetected by the insensitive.I engage in a daily skirmish
Battling urges of defiance, pride, and denial
Only conquering non-compliance with sobering
Memories of manic ruin and Bedlam’s misery.So, with a perfunctory glance,
A medicinally modified mind
Turns, parting from the mirror’s defeated reflection,
Fortified, to face the day.
Posted by alexandra_k on October 31, 2004, at 22:38:44
In reply to Pill Poetry, posted by Toph on October 31, 2004, at 14:40:54
Yes indeed. And on that note, I am off to take mine :-)
Posted by Jai Narayan on November 6, 2004, at 16:19:31
In reply to Re: Pill Poetry » Toph, posted by alexandra_k on October 31, 2004, at 22:38:44
Toph, I dreamed about your name while I was off on my vacation. What pray tell does your name mean?
Your name has captured my dream state imagination.
Jai
Posted by Toph on November 6, 2004, at 17:54:39
In reply to Toph, posted by Jai Narayan on November 6, 2004, at 16:19:31
Hi Jai, there was definately a happiness shortage while you were gone. I probably shouldn't say, but since you asked so nicely, my name is Christopher, my brother calls me Topher, and I use Toph here for short.
There's a phrase about dreams on a poster in my shrink's waiting room that escapes me. I see him Tuesday. I'll try to memorize it for you. Glad you're back.
-Topher
Posted by Jai Narayan on November 6, 2004, at 19:06:00
In reply to Re: Toph » Jai Narayan, posted by Toph on November 6, 2004, at 17:54:39
Really nice...really. I think that is so sweet your brother calls you that....is it a baby name? Is your brother younger? Oh god save the babies and their super cute language. Love that baby talk.
I kept seeing your name in my dream and a voice kept saying don't forget this name.
So there it is.
I have remembered.
nice response.
Jai
Posted by fayeroe on November 6, 2004, at 20:49:49
In reply to Pill Poetry, posted by Toph on October 31, 2004, at 14:40:54
Toph.......I'm standing right behind you....Pat
Posted by Toph on November 6, 2004, at 23:05:28
In reply to Re: Pill Poetry, posted by fayeroe on November 6, 2004, at 20:49:49
Not sure what you mean, Pat.
Posted by Toph on November 6, 2004, at 23:17:43
In reply to Re: Toph, posted by Jai Narayan on November 6, 2004, at 19:06:00
My older brother calls me that. Our family likes to use nicknames as terms of endearment. This practice comes from my Dad who has a hard time with intimacy so he made funny nicknames for us all as a kind of way to show us that he loves us. He called my older brother Strepniackle P.J. Perfumeface; I was Christopher Wistopher J. Pistopher; then there was Jonathan O. With a Mouth Like an O (A. A. Milne); my youngest brother was Diggle Daggle Davie; and my sister was Poop Sloop.
I know, no wonder I'm mentally ill.
-Toph
Posted by fayeroe on November 7, 2004, at 6:05:21
In reply to Re: Poetry » fayeroe, posted by Toph on November 6, 2004, at 23:05:28
I mean that I also make that decison every morning.......deciding to take my med.....Pat
Posted by Jai Narayan on November 7, 2004, at 7:55:53
In reply to Re: Stuff » Jai Narayan, posted by Toph on November 6, 2004, at 23:17:43
really cool story...my mother had given us nicknames.
I seem to only remember nicknames.
As soon as someone tells me their name I have changed it in my brain...
then I seem to only remember that made up name.
I guess I was "Alice in the LookingGlass"....
Jai
Posted by Toph on November 7, 2004, at 8:12:05
In reply to Re: Poetry, posted by fayeroe on November 7, 2004, at 6:05:21
fayeroe, I didn't for a long time, take my meds, that is. I lost ten years of my life bouncing in and out of the hospital and falling flat on my face every time I began to actually get somewhere as a young adult. Then one day, I found myself in the State psychiatric hospital after becoming psychotic while my wife was in labor with my first child. Even manic, with delusions of grandieur, I, for the first time in a manic state, realized that I couldn't continue to live this way anymore. Motivated by this epiphany, I started taking meds religiously and haven't darkened the door of a psych ward in 23 years. Imagine a 7-pound infant saving a person's life. Just one of the reasons I love my son. But despite getting my life back, fayeroe, every time I look at that fucking pill, every time, I hate what it stands for - that I've got a brain that's flawed - I'm only a few missed pills away from that manic road to ruin.
-Toph
Posted by Toph on November 8, 2004, at 9:21:29
In reply to Re: Pills » fayeroe, posted by Toph on November 7, 2004, at 8:12:05
> But despite getting my life back, fayeroe, every time I look at that f***ing pill, every time, I hate what it stands for - that I've got a brain that's flawed - I'm only a few missed pills away from that manic road to ruin.
>Sorry to use crude language - I have a love/hate relationship with my medicine - I love that the pill lets me live a somewhat normal life, hate in a big way that I need it.
Posted by Toph on November 8, 2004, at 20:54:28
In reply to Re: Stuff » Jai Narayan, posted by Toph on November 6, 2004, at 23:17:43
> ...He called my older brother Strepniackle P.J. Perfumeface; I was Christopher Wistopher J. Pistopher; then there was Jonathan O. With a Mouth Like an O (A. A. Milne); my youngest brother was Diggle Daggle Davie; and my sister was Poop Sloop...
> I know, no wonder I'm mentally ill.
> -Toph
>
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