Psycho-Babble Writing Thread 384377

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He has gone on ahead of me....

Posted by Jai Narayan on August 30, 2004, at 22:03:46

Okay I was married at the tender age of 22 and that marriage lasted for only a few years with a traumatic break in the middle.
Well life did deal a "make it or break it" hand.
I was bluffing but went for broke.
I didn't fold my hand till I was spent.
I ended my thirst for love when the love of my life professed I was crazy.
Oh joy.
I exited and fled back to my husband.
He seemed to be a safe harbor.
Well now this man is dead.
I can't really make sense of this.
My memories keep going and the stories still are alive.
We had a dog, a camero, a house with a bath tub full of foul weed, we had a life that was filled with distraction.
Distraction from my saddenss.
I had loved and lost.
My fall back was this man I had married.
I am ashamed.
I could have been more for him.
He's gone now.
He's gone.
I am still here on this planet of joy, sorrow, angst and love.
I am still alive.
He has gone.

 

Re: He has gone on ahead of me.... » Jai Narayan

Posted by Atticus on August 31, 2004, at 9:01:53

In reply to He has gone on ahead of me...., posted by Jai Narayan on August 30, 2004, at 22:03:46

Jai,
How long ago did he pass away? Was this a recent event? This isn't something you've written about previously. Obviously, the conflicting emotions are very complex here: longing, loss, regret, feelings of detachment, a need for safe-harbor attachment, and maybe some guilt as well. A lot goin' on in this piece. Thanks for sharing this. :) Atticus

 

Re: He has gone on ahead of me....

Posted by Jai Narayan on August 31, 2004, at 20:51:19

In reply to Re: He has gone on ahead of me.... » Jai Narayan, posted by Atticus on August 31, 2004, at 9:01:53

I just found out last week that he may have died. It's so very new...the feeling.
thanks for responding.

 

Re: He has gone on ahead of me.... » Jai Narayan

Posted by rayww on September 1, 2004, at 1:16:30

In reply to Re: He has gone on ahead of me...., posted by Jai Narayan on August 31, 2004, at 20:51:19

Jai, I just surfed to this board and noticed your writing. You must be experiencing feelings that you have never felt before. My thoughts are with you tonight.


I have read this little book so many times, and each time it has helped me uncover and express new emotion. May I suggest it to you?
"How to survive the loss of a love" by Peter McWilliams


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