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Posted by Poet on April 7, 2007, at 13:22:16
My second day I got there and the office was locked. This is what happened to me on my last day of my last job and I started freaking out that I was going to be fired on my second day! Naturally, I had forgotten both my cell phone and my clonazepam, two essentials that I really needed.
I waited 10 minutes, paced the hall, pounded on the door, just in case somebody was in there and didn't hear me, finally got into my car and drove to a pay phone. Standing in a puddle and fearing the germs on the phone I called the office: it went immediately to the voicemail system. I left a voicemail for my boss saying I was 15 minutes away from my house and was going to get my cell phone, and call them again on the way back to the office.
Who I really needed to call was my T. And I really needed my meds, too. From home I called the office and someone was there. New Boss wondered why I didn't just sit in the hall and wait, but he bought that I live close to the office and thought if someone from there was calling my cell phone to let me know what time they'd be in, it was important that I have it.
I talked to my T the whole way back to the office. Took two clonazepam, too. Not a good way to start a day, but I worked the whole week and have stuff on my desk to do on Monday.
Poet
Posted by Dinah on April 9, 2007, at 18:20:59
In reply to Got Though My First Week + Only Panicked Once, posted by Poet on April 7, 2007, at 13:22:16
That's pretty darn good for a first week.
I'm glad it's going well.
Posted by annierose on April 27, 2007, at 20:17:54
In reply to Got Though My First Week + Only Panicked Once, posted by Poet on April 7, 2007, at 13:22:16
I have been thinking about you and I started looking through babble trying to find an update. Low and behold - on the "work" site - who'd thunk it?
Do you like the people that work there? Do you like the work?
How have the subsequent weeks gone?
MORE DETAILS please!! If you have time ...Thanks for sharing,
Annie
Posted by Poet on May 3, 2007, at 21:37:15
In reply to Re: Got Though My First Week + Only Panicked Once, posted by annierose on April 27, 2007, at 20:17:54
Hi Annierose,
Who woulda thunk me posting on the Work board?
So far things are, I am afraid to say it, good. I actually talked about that in therapy yesterday, I'm afaid I'm going to jinx it because good things don't happen to me very often and when they do I immediately get scared that something bad will happen.
The people seem to like me, even Grumpy Old Man (he calls himself that) said he thinks the quality of my work is excellent. Today, I got a key to the office, so it looks like, dare I say this, too, I am there to stay.
The only downside is that three out of four partners are in their late 70s (and one has cancer) so the paranoid part of me says they're going to shut down and retire. Though partner four is only in his 40s, so who knows. What I need is a steady paycheck and good experience on my resume, both of which I am finally getting.
Poet
Posted by gazo on May 4, 2007, at 11:19:57
In reply to Work Update » annierose, posted by Poet on May 3, 2007, at 21:37:15
you'll do great... yyou just got to believe it. If they ever did shut down they won't do it soon, so at worst you'd have that experience on the resume.. but with one partner in the 40 range... well, why wouldn't he/she build thier own biz.. and take you, the valuable and long standing employee with him/her? It sounds ideal really. i mean someone at that age isn't going to retire and setting up anew would require the help of an experienced and trusted employee...namely you.
i am glad you are happy there.. now, can you please pass the good luck wand this way? it should be my turn by now.
Posted by annierose on June 9, 2007, at 22:20:12
In reply to Got Though My First Week + Only Panicked Once, posted by Poet on April 7, 2007, at 13:22:16
how is it going Poet? Do you still like it there?
I was just thinking of you and wanted to check in.
Posted by Poet on June 10, 2007, at 11:07:43
In reply to Re: Two months later ..., posted by annierose on June 9, 2007, at 22:20:12
Hi Annierose,
I still like it despite my fear of being fired anxiety. I've made some mistakes, but no one has made a big deal out of them, which gives me some security. It's my need to be perfect and fear of being fired for not being perfect that is triggering the anxiety.
I think that they like me and one of the lawyers said that he is impressed with the quality of my work which is a major plus. Though I did a really dumb typo on something of his last week so he might take that compliment back. I decided to triple check my work from now on. The joys of being a perfectionist.
I can wear jeans or capris and sandals and I really like that. Suits don't suit me, pun intended.
Thanks for asking and for thinking about me.
Poet
Posted by Honore on June 24, 2007, at 10:29:58
In reply to Re: Two months later ... » annierose, posted by Poet on June 10, 2007, at 11:07:43
Poet, that's so great (not to jinx you, I'm knocking on wood as I say that, cause it protects you from my optimism, which I'm sure is not well-founded).
But I am delighted that at least so far you've been doing well, and your mistakes are seen for what they are-- temporary, unimportant, and something to work on, or just forget-- but nothing major, nothing earth=shaking.
I'd like to hear more about the work you're doing, and the place and people you're working with.
I know that feeling of not being able to trust the good feelings, or hope-- of thinking that just at the moment when you begin to be trusting, something will take it away. We must have had similar mothers-- you know?
But if you can have a little perspective on your perfectionism-- maybe you can come to feel that mistake are opportunities too-- to do things a little differently, to experiment, to learn and grow. I often feel that, despite being afraid that mistakes, if they're too big, and too multiple, will become ruinous. I guess they're a double-edged sword.
But still, I'm really pleased that things have gone well, and are stablizing.
Honore
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