Psycho-Babble Work Thread 733789

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Everything hit the fan

Posted by Dinah on February 18, 2007, at 10:00:56

First my computer nearly died, before I figured out that if I took out my battery I could coax it to start. Which gave me a chance to bring my backups up to date. Whew.

Then a blowup involving me led to a general blowup. At the end I asked for someone (and made a specific request for which someone) to be my resource manager. He didn't seem averse to the idea.

For some reason my head feels cleared and I've been working long hours. I guess part of it is that they're really mad at me and I hate for people to be mad at me, but I think the main reason was that I may have been yelled at, but at least I think they heard what I've been saying. I don't think it will lead to any lasting change - in fact the way it was resolved almost guarantees that no lasting change will occur, but temporarily at least it gave me hope. Which leads me to believe that my mental block was caused by hope-lessness.

So this is why I haven't been around much. My computer is still temperamental, plus I've *really* been putting in some long hours.

 

Re: Everything hit the fan

Posted by Dinah on February 19, 2007, at 11:43:30

In reply to Everything hit the fan, posted by Dinah on February 18, 2007, at 10:00:56

Never mind. It must have been the adrenaline. I'm back to oatmeal brain. :(

I really think either the diabetes or years of psych meds have changed my brain.

 

Re: Everything hit the fan » Dinah

Posted by Poet on February 19, 2007, at 13:34:58

In reply to Re: Everything hit the fan, posted by Dinah on February 19, 2007, at 11:43:30

Hi Dinah,

Sorry about your brain reverting back to oatmeal. At least when it hit the fan, it didn't fly back at you (too much.)

Poet

 

Re: Everything hit the fan » Poet

Posted by Dinah on February 20, 2007, at 10:37:48

In reply to Re: Everything hit the fan » Dinah, posted by Poet on February 19, 2007, at 13:34:58

I got off fairly lightly. I've even since found some mitigating conditions for myself (although they would have been more mitigating if I'd been aware of them). They mostly were angry with each other with all the pent up emotions that conflict averse people sometimes store up.

However, I was right about me. I went in yesterday and there was a stack of work on my desk, and discreet inquiries revealed that they had decided to forget that I didn't have time to do it. :(

And I'm back to waking up every morning with the suicidal thoughts I tend to get when I feel trapped, although I manage to shake them off later in the day.

 

Re: Everything hit the fan » Dinah

Posted by TexasChic on February 27, 2007, at 21:52:44

In reply to Re: Everything hit the fan » Poet, posted by Dinah on February 20, 2007, at 10:37:48

Oh Dinah, I hate that you feel that way. I know the feeling way too well. The only way I've ever solved it was to move on to another job. I know that's difficult where you are though. But it never hurts to look! And sometimes just looking has made me feel better. You never can tell what's around the corner, and if you don't take a peek, you'll NEVER know!

-T

 

There's been progress, believe it or not

Posted by Dinah on February 28, 2007, at 17:19:42

In reply to Re: Everything hit the fan » Dinah, posted by TexasChic on February 27, 2007, at 21:52:44

And naturally I have mixed feelings about that.

My kneejerk response was "Wait. That's mine! And if you do it you won't do it the way I like it done, and it will mess me up next time I do it."

Then a second response of "Wait. I'll never do it again, so it doesn't matter if they don't do it my way."

Then a third response of "Well, ok, I did want them to take some of my work. But maybe not without telling me first?"

And a fourth response of "On the other hand, that's what giving away work means. It means that I am no longer responsible and don't need to worry about whether or not it's done. They're doing it just right."

And then "But it's MY work."

and so on. :)

Change is kind of hard for me. lol.


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