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Posted by califcamper on June 19, 2008, at 16:49:29
It seems like my mind goes up and down chemically almost daily. Now Im down. I look at old emails I sent to people and I was in a completely different state of mind. I know this all sounds like it just is simple but I have to tell anyone that cares, I just dont understand anymore. Even when I feel a little decent, its never enough, to really make a difference. Im NEVER just happy. Its all a head trick. Damn, Im sorry, I am just losing it and have nowhere to go. Im 42, I thought it would be different by now. Just one example of trying to get help, the hour at a therapist just isnt enough to change my life. Im scared and there is no one to hold me in my life. Ive been running my entire life, it finally caught me.
Posted by Sigismund on June 23, 2008, at 19:46:57
In reply to I dont know anymore, posted by califcamper on June 19, 2008, at 16:49:29
As I see it, the problems with our minds is the endless ramification. It sounds terrible and perhaps it is, but I do wonder if it is better to give up hope, ajust (adjust? I'm forgetting my spelling) your expectations downward, and simply accept that you will never be happy. I think happiness is much more likely to come that way than by desiring it.
But you need to be as well as you can be too.Here's a little something to hold you....
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6vBIRmAipEk
Posted by karinamarie on October 22, 2008, at 17:21:46
In reply to I dont know anymore, posted by califcamper on June 19, 2008, at 16:49:29
HiYour posts brought tears to my eyes because I have been in the same position so many times. In April of this year I was thinking the same thoughts as you. I was in hospital again, changing drugs again and wondering why at 39 I had not found a way to wellness. I felt as though the Bipolar had finally got me and would not let go. I was worried that the new combination of drugs would fail as all the others had. A few months later I had to come off Efexor which was a horrible experience but lead me to this site looking for answers looking for change. Since then I have decided that the Bipolar will not beat me! The two mood stabelizers I am on seem to be working quite well. I am taking supplements to assist the meds and my poor brain. I am eating really well and drinking lots of water. I am trying to exercize at the moment just gentle walks. I do feel so much better! I am calmer, more balanced (amazing for a girl who cycles up and down during the day) and less depressed. I am fighting because there is really no other choice. Please don't give up. Keep coming to this site and looking for ways to get better. The alternative section is wonderful. There is so much out there we just have to find the answers for ourselves sometimes. I have stopped relying only on my doctor and my meds. They only do so much and I need more weapons to fight my fight.
Be well.
Smiles from AustraliaKarina
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