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Posted by rjlockhart04-08 on January 15, 2010, at 19:59:51
will someone help me reconnect with my brother..?
Right now, i've been kinda locked in my own prison in my room, and I have no validy to show myself somewhere because I'm just ashamed that I can't keep a job because I can't "concentrate" and stay on task. right now I'm going through a process on getting on focus medication because that helps social skills, i've abused stimulants in the past, and my family knows it.
I just want to reconnect but I just know that i'm not wanted but it hurt's me. It's kinda of like the same with "selective" friends, you know there's people that "select" people because there's some kind of connection. I think that's what's going on with me and my brother it's a "selective" thing because words say "we like you, rj" but in the heart...i'm not liked, maybe because of descious i've made.
I wished I could just go back and be enjoyed, but the thing...I just don't know what to say to my own family, like start a conversation. And right now I'm in the process of getting put on focus medication, even though i've had history of abuse with it, I'm going to take it correctly, i've grown out of that irresponsible person who just want's things "immidatly".
Anyone?
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Posted by janejane on January 15, 2010, at 20:09:13
In reply to some friends and family, posted by rjlockhart04-08 on January 15, 2010, at 19:59:51
If you're starting new meds, I wonder whether you should wait until you're feeling better. They might be more receptive if they see a positive change in you.
Posted by rjlockhart04-08 on January 15, 2010, at 22:58:34
In reply to some friends and family, posted by rjlockhart04-08 on January 15, 2010, at 19:59:51
We'll one thing...me and brother had a talk about going to a "life-rehabilition center" and I argued and won, yet then I had to go one near my house which was rehab because of alcohol abuse with stimulants. What...I think is, sometimes "medication" is seen as "drugs" and my brother started to come a spectulation that "chemical dependence" was there, i'm a "dork" and i'm not invited to anything that envolved his friends, double quack quack...:(
I could just show up at his office, but I don't want any condemnation to happen.
The thing about the medication....I just got a scan done and this scan showed that there where sector's in the brain that where not "active" as a normal human's brain functions, and it did confirm that I had asperger's, maybe not all the way but there where part's that where not "there", I think the Cellebum..it was smaller than normal human's.
When I worked for him, the good part was I was going to acting school and I was on the road to be an actor, I used to talk about this with my brother and he thought it was great...
But when I went off medication, everything fell to pieces.I just...have to explain to my family that there are some sector's that are not normal, for socilizing...normal body movement's...
I tend to just be a recluse...and that's my comfort and then it turns into a prison. So...I need to back in gear, but I have wait to see my doctor to talk about the scan.
Does anyone else have any ideas what brotherhood could be like, what can I do to benefit something in a family?
Yet,
Posted by floatingbridge on January 16, 2010, at 3:28:47
In reply to Re: some friends and family, posted by rjlockhart04-08 on January 15, 2010, at 22:58:34
Rj, could you resume acting? Did you really do that? Acting, dancing, singing, just projecting your voice help the healing porcess and lead to good feelings.
What is your bro into? Is he younger or older? Maybe some time as I think it was Janejane mentioned --and that clear speech you spoke to your mum with.
Hoping for you,
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Posted by rjlockhart04-08 on January 16, 2010, at 19:58:42
In reply to Re: some friends and family » rjlockhart04-08, posted by floatingbridge on January 16, 2010, at 3:28:47
I was just in the commerical intro class, I wasnt "big" envolved in agency's, it was just a class that I thought at the time was going to go somewhere and I made a big mistake by taking a break.
You know sometimes I just want it to be 2001, my brother used to call me and talk about things that where just what a brother talked to his a brother about. I think defiently things changed and their was descions made...they moved on, and now have a wonderful family.
The thing is, I just avoid it because I don't want to bring any "weight" into the family, like problems, drama, I usally keep that private. I just want the old youthful brother I had, now he's a buisness man, lawyer...
The medication is vital, to get back on because I know I abused it in the past, stimulants stimulate something that is not active in brain and they improve alot of things that lead to a normal life.
I just have to wait, and it's like being in this prison in my room because I just feel safe and secure here, and this is what you call a comfort zone, while the world functions...i'm standing still.
Gotta get back into gear...
thanks
Posted by floatingbridge on January 18, 2010, at 16:35:59
In reply to Re: some friends and family, posted by rjlockhart04-08 on January 16, 2010, at 19:58:42
>they moved on, and now have a wonderful family.
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> The thing is, I just avoid it because I don't want to bring any "weight" into the family, like problems, drama, I usally keep that private. I just want the old youthful brother I had, now he's a buisness man, lawyer...rj, maybe your bro misses his connection with you, too. I know we can't go back in time. Sometimes it's painful to look at what's been lost. Sometimes, new bridges can be built. I think your instinct not to bring 'weight' into his family has a kernel of truth--it sounds like you'd like your relationship to be mutual and not centered too heavily on your issues w/ mental illness. That sounds very healthy to me. And maybe your brother can accept you more as you are more than you expect. Your desire for a healthy connection sounds like a good thing. I wish you the best.
hugs,
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Posted by rjlockhart04-08 on January 18, 2010, at 19:09:28
In reply to Re: some friends and family » rjlockhart04-08, posted by floatingbridge on January 18, 2010, at 16:35:59
thanks for the imput, i was waiting for a response back. Just...i think, one makes a descion, like a anarchy..like system, or maybe even a dictator system.
It's just like friendship there are phases where you simply meet people, and move on. I know that my aunt and uncle are alway's family, it's just I did something like abuse medication and they found out about and that put a bad rep on me.
thanks..
next time I talk about my brother say "HMIC" it's a code
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