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Posted by sometimesblue on March 18, 2009, at 10:27:40
...please bear with me....or giude me in the right direction please because I really need to talk to someone who can give me some insight as to what's wrong.
I'm feeling my depression trying to rise up again. And I've noticed that with it come this awful feeling of guilt. Suddenly I'll be sadenned by past wrongs (I don't know if they are real or just in my head). I'll feel guilty for not properly feeding my oldest son when he was a baby, like I starved him or something, he's on the small side (he's almost 4 yrs old now) and I think I'm the reason for that. Like I didn't take good care of him. I feel guilty for not spending enough time with him and my younger son (who is almost 2). I feel guilty for having to work, for yelling too much, for not holding them enough, not feeding them vegetables, forgetting to give them their vitamins. I feel like a horrible mom.
And it isn't just my kids, I feel awful for drinking too much, for not being a good wife, a good daughter to my parents. I don't know what to do. This feeling is so overwhelming I just want to retreat into a corner and cry.
I'm having mornings where i don't want to go to work because I feel like this heaviness on my chest (I can't explain it); I don't want to stay home because I feel so alone and I know I'll just cry...but then again, I don't want to see anyone. It's like i hate being me. What's wrong with me?
Posted by Phillipa on March 18, 2009, at 12:53:52
In reply to Not sure this is the right board to post on...., posted by sometimesblue on March 18, 2009, at 10:27:40
Have you seen a doc for an evaluation? Sounds a bit like depression? Love Phillipa
Posted by Justherself54 on March 19, 2009, at 18:09:46
In reply to Not sure this is the right board to post on...., posted by sometimesblue on March 18, 2009, at 10:27:40
It sound to me like your depression needs to be assessed and possibly treated..a visit or call to your doc may be in order..I hope you feel better soon.
Posted by Kath on March 20, 2009, at 20:42:13
In reply to Not sure this is the right board to post on...., posted by sometimesblue on March 18, 2009, at 10:27:40
So sorry.
You are being really hard on yourself. The fact that you care about things NOW shows that you are a caring person.
Do you have a therapist or counsellor? If not, could you arrange to get one through a local hospital? Or if there's a women's shelter, I'd contact them.
I think you would really benefit from having In-Real-Life help to see yourself as a loveable person.
(((you))) Kath
Posted by sometimesblue on March 23, 2009, at 9:45:33
In reply to Re: Not sure this is the right board to post on.... » sometimesblue, posted by Kath on March 20, 2009, at 20:42:13
How does this work? I tried it but I don't seem to get any benefit from it. Do you think it's a memory or some kind of trauma I'm repressing? I don't have a therapist or counselor, I have a hard time confiding in someone, i think they'll think I'm being a baby kind of...especially because I don't know why i feel the way I do. Thank you for caring ((kath)).
SB
> So sorry.
>
> You are being really hard on yourself. The fact that you care about things NOW shows that you are a caring person.
>
> Do you have a therapist or counsellor? If not, could you arrange to get one through a local hospital? Or if there's a women's shelter, I'd contact them.
>
> I think you would really benefit from having In-Real-Life help to see yourself as a loveable person.
>
> (((you))) Kath
Posted by sometimesblue on March 23, 2009, at 9:49:43
In reply to Re: Not sure this is the right board to post on.... » sometimesblue, posted by Justherself54 on March 19, 2009, at 18:09:46
Well, my PCP is the one that put me on antidepressants after I had my first son. I've always (as long as I can remember anyway) been depressed on and off. I've been on a few ad's but right now I'm on wellbutrin. I'm supposed to take it 2x per day, but I only take it once because it gives me anxiety. I don't think this has anything to do with my moods/feelings because I've been doing this for some time now. This guilt thing has been going on for a long time...but it seems to be stronger now. I don't know what I'm doing wrong or why I keep dwelling on things I can't change. I'm a mess.
SB
> It sound to me like your depression needs to be assessed and possibly treated..a visit or call to your doc may be in order..I hope you feel better soon.
Posted by Kath on March 23, 2009, at 12:25:33
In reply to Re: Not sure this is the right board to post on...., posted by sometimesblue on March 23, 2009, at 9:49:43
Re your meds & anxiety - maybe the meds need to be looked at.
Sorry you're feeling so awful.
(((you)))
Kath
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