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Posted by llurpsienoodle on July 2, 2008, at 19:36:53
Hi everyone,
This is llurpsie's reticular activation system
She just completed a theta-wave brain stimulation CD in an effort to disguise herself as a great thinker. Now she is feeling kind of intoxicated.See, I have just started a new job, and now I am working 7 days a week, full time. MONEY!!! now, money is overrated, but so is freetime, at least the kind of freetime that stems from underemployment.
So I got a phone call from a babbler today (((((babbler))))) asking me whether I'm okay. Don't worry, never fear dear babblers. I am here, I am reading sporadically and trying desperately to remember the proper steps for filling out and submitting a time card, and figuring out how to be a consultant/contractor for the first time in my life. That means I kind of own my own business. whoa.
Therapy wise, I had a terrifying dream that my therapist was piloting a very fast speedboat at 50mph around the lake, and heading for shore with a boyish twinkle in his eye. Very distressed llurpsie begged and screamed at him to stop. Then we hit the shore and I woke up in a panic. I related this to my T (the first time I've ever told him about a dream I had of him) and he said that it's probably from a perception that life is moving too fast and that I'm not in control.
Self-esteem wise, I've been doing a lot of positive visualizations and writing down first-person present tense affirmations every morning with my coffee. It seems to be helping, because my affirmations are coming true.
I listened to an audio book on 21 time management strategies by Brian Tracy, and I'm trying to build some of them into my life. Towards this goal I have been writing out goals, and deadlines, and to-do lists and priorities, and trying my darnedest not to procrastinate. I also bought a pack of 30 of the world's largest post-it notes. They are 24 by 36 inches, and stick on the wall in my office and I can scribble all my notes everywhere my heart fancies.
I mention all of this because I am having a hard time fitting babble into the mix. I just don't have as much freetime as I used to. for better or worse. I still love babble though.
moodwise, I am having flashes and dreams of nervous breakdown, as this job reminds me of another job I had when I had a total crisis and became suicidal and self-loathing. I'm trying to tell myself that this is a completely different situation, but the truth is that I can only innoculate myself so much with self-help and therapy buffers.
See my pdoc next week. should be delightful. I can hardly wait.
I had to buy a calendar planner.
crazy huh?
-Ll
Posted by jammerlich on July 2, 2008, at 20:22:56
In reply to whoa-- my vestibular system reads 'wonky', posted by llurpsienoodle on July 2, 2008, at 19:36:53
Posted by Tabitha on July 3, 2008, at 2:29:29
In reply to whoa-- my vestibular system reads 'wonky', posted by llurpsienoodle on July 2, 2008, at 19:36:53
but I also love the word 'wonky'
Posted by fayeroe on July 3, 2008, at 17:48:01
In reply to Re: you had me at 'vestibular' » llurpsienoodle, posted by Tabitha on July 3, 2008, at 2:29:29
((((for miss wonky))))
i'm going to miss you alot, but will live vicarious through your trips to the bank....:-0
Posted by llurpsienoodle on July 3, 2008, at 19:53:50
In reply to whoa-- my vestibular system reads 'wonky', posted by llurpsienoodle on July 2, 2008, at 19:36:53
Thanks you guys! I miss babble lots.
I'll see you around, especially on weekends
:)
Posted by Phillipa on July 5, 2008, at 12:59:14
In reply to my duodenum smiles » llurpsienoodle, posted by llurpsienoodle on July 3, 2008, at 19:53:50
Don't work too hard. Take time for you too. Best of luck. Phillipa
Posted by Kath on July 8, 2008, at 15:22:13
In reply to whoa-- my vestibular system reads 'wonky', posted by llurpsienoodle on July 2, 2008, at 19:36:53
> See, I have just started a new job, and now I am working 7 days a week, full time. MONEY!!!
******congrats - glad to hear it! Hope it doesn't mean you'll stop making your wonderful jewellry. ***
> and he said that it's probably from a perception that life is moving too fast and that I'm not in control.
***Makes sense to me**
> Self-esteem wise, I've been doing a lot of positive visualizations and writing down first-person present tense affirmations every morning with my coffee. It seems to be helping, because my affirmations are coming true.****Wow - that's impressive. I'd like to know more about that; how long has it taken for them to come true? Are they all about yourself?**
> I'm trying to tell myself that this is a completely different situation, but the truth is that I can only innoculate myself so much with self-help and therapy buffers.
*****I totally relate. I find my emotional reactions to even little things are WAY bigger than they 'should be' - bigger than is realistic. I hate it. Let me know if you find a solution please. I hope you have time to keep us in the loop as it feels comfortable.Sorry I haven't been 'around'.
luv, kath
Posted by llurpsienoodle on July 8, 2008, at 17:39:49
In reply to Re: whoa-- my vestibular system reads 'wonky' » llurpsienoodle, posted by Kath on July 8, 2008, at 15:22:13
> > See, I have just started a new job, and now I am working 7 days a week, full time. MONEY!!!
>
> ******congrats - glad to hear it! Hope it doesn't mean you'll stop making your wonderful jewellry. ***\
HA! I quit my old job, so now I'm only working 3-4 days a week. YAY! for me!!!
> > Self-esteem wise, I've been doing a lot of positive visualizations and writing down first-person present tense affirmations every morning with my coffee. It seems to be helping, because my affirmations are coming true.
>
> ****Wow - that's impressive. I'd like to know more about that; how long has it taken for them to come true? Are they all about yourself?**
>
Things like "I like my job" and getting to work and having a good feeling. or "I'm going to get a frappucino, and h brings me a frappucino" lol OF COURSE they're all about myself! To the extent that I am a better person for mankind, the frappucino was a wise decision on the part of h.
>
> > I'm trying to tell myself that this is a completely different situation, but the truth is that I can only innoculate myself so much with self-help and therapy buffers.
> *****I totally relate. I find my emotional reactions to even little things are WAY bigger than they 'should be' - bigger than is realistic. I hate it. Let me know if you find a solution please. I hope you have time to keep us in the loop as it feels comfortable.I like this comfy loop too. kind of like an elastic terry-cloth loop.
I do some CBT journalling when I feel really worried/anxious/angry/depressed.
I put my emotion in the left column, the intensity in the middle (I have a scale that is from 50 to 100. if it's not above a 50, I don't give a crap about the pain of journalling. Then I write down all my thoughts at that moment "I am a dumba*s, I am stupid, I hate my life, I am a big pimple, I shouldn't make so many errors, people hate me" etc. Then I apply little CBT labels to the thoughts to signify to my rational mind how distorted my thoughts are ("fortune telling" "catastrophizing" etc.)
I like smelly essential oils too
and cinnamon pastries.
>
> Sorry I haven't been 'around'.
>
> luv, kathKath, you are much missed- hope you've been having fun!
Posted by Kath on July 8, 2008, at 18:22:19
In reply to Re: whoa-- my vestibular system reads 'wonky' » Kath, posted by llurpsienoodle on July 8, 2008, at 17:39:49
> HA! I quit my old job, so now I'm only working 3-4 days a week. YAY! for me!!!
****** WELL!!!!!!!! So does that mean we get you for more time than we had expected? Please say yes. :-)
> Things like "I like my job" and getting to work and having a good feeling. or "I'm going to get a frappucino, and h brings me a frappucino" lol OF COURSE they're all about myself! To the extent that I am a better person for mankind, the frappucino was a wise decision on the part of h.
****LOL. I guess I was wondering if I did affirmations about my son, if I could alter the course of history!!!!! LOL I guess I could say, "I am totally at peace & worryfree despite anything that happens in _'s life".
> I do some CBT journalling when I feel really worried/anxious/angry/depressed.
> I put my emotion in the left column, the intensity in the middle (I have a scale that is from 50 to 100. if it's not above a 50, I don't give a crap about the pain of journalling. Then I write down all my thoughts at that moment "I am a dumba*s, I am stupid, I hate my life, I am a big pimple, I shouldn't make so many errors, people hate me" etc. Then I apply little CBT labels to the thoughts to signify to my rational mind how distorted my thoughts are ("fortune telling" "catastrophizing" etc.)
******Now that's interesting. I don't know the 'labels'....it might help me to know them! I do a 2-columned page:left side: Facts
right side: Emotions; triggered stuff - usually discovered by asking "when have I felt like this before?"
I like the designating a number idea & the labelling. I guess I should bite the bullet & actually GET (at least from the library) that book that people talk about - the CBT one except I can't remember the name. Or was it DBT? hmm.
> Kath, you are much missed- hope you've been having fun!*****That feels nice - the much missed part. I guess I always view myself as someone who blabs alot & who people wouldn't miss if I wasn't here. Thanks LL.
I guess I COULD have been having fun if I didn't have a mind! I'll type a separate thread about my life. Maybe I'll even get around to it right now!
luv, Kath
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