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Posted by verne on November 13, 2006, at 19:20:40
Disowned by family and estranged from friends, I'm really just going through the motions, tying up loose ends, and expecting to check out within 4 years - or sooner if my health goes.
I finally took on the garage today, and after 4 van-loads to the bottle/can redemption center and recycling center, I'm feeling a little less embarrassed about someone seeing my garage after I die. Of course I overpaid the driver to keep him quiet.
I must have built one of the highest pyramids of empty beer bottles in existance. It was seven feet tall with a base ten feet across. At least now I'll have room for the car I don't drive.
The idea was to clean out the garage and never drink again. Six days sober, I thought I could safely sort and transport over a thousand empty beer bottles. But with all the clinking of glass and faint smell of beer, I raced to the store for the full updated cold version when I was done.
I hope I don't get obnoxious. (what do I mean *get*) I'll probably just sit around and watch sexist movies. (I like *chick flicks* and always complain later how sexist they are) By the way, I rarely use the expression *chick flick* but it best describes the sort of movies I've been watching lately. "Miracles", "American Dreamer" and that sort of thing.
In spite of my complaining I watched "Bridget Jones" twice yesterday evening and got teary-eyed both times. I wish I hadn't stayed up and watched both "Remains of the Day" and "Howard's End" all in one evening a few days ago. I like Emma Thompson but there's a limit. I still haven't recovered.
Or I'll just play poker. Either way I probably won't post enough to get myself blocked, my usual custom in these circumstances.
vbblah
Posted by clearskies on November 13, 2006, at 19:38:50
In reply to 5-Flag Vurricaine Warning, posted by verne on November 13, 2006, at 19:20:40
I have never heard of a beer pyramid before... I'm sorry that it inspired you to perhaps start a new one; if only because you might feel badly about it.
I'm away from home at the moment, but I owe you an email.
swimmingly,
CS
Posted by TexasChic on November 13, 2006, at 20:12:02
In reply to Re: 5-Flag Vurricaine Warning *trigger above* » verne, posted by clearskies on November 13, 2006, at 19:38:50
Weird, I was just thinking how horrible it would be if I died and my family had to go through my mess. It's bad. It definitely reflects some sort of mental disorder. I think when I get home I somehow block it out. I try to do something, but when I get a day off all I do is sleep and read. I slept the whole long weekend I had. I did do laundry, but that was out of sheer necessity. And of course evenings are no good because that's when I drink. How did you get yourself to get started on the garage? Maybe stopping drinking is the key.
-T
Posted by Lindenblüte on November 13, 2006, at 22:02:36
In reply to Re: 5-Flag Vurricaine Warning *trigger*Verne, posted by TexasChic on November 13, 2006, at 20:12:02
Did you get any money from your bottle recycling?
maybe you could spend it on something non-alcoholic treating yourself?
Do you have any 4 legged friends?
I'm just trying to get to know you better, because I like your artistry and I don't want to contemplate a world that doesn't need people like you.
-Li
Posted by Phillipa on November 13, 2006, at 23:13:25
In reply to Re: 5-Flag Vurricaine Warning *trigger*Verne, posted by Lindenblüte on November 13, 2006, at 22:02:36
Verne are you off the stuff? Love Phillipa with a pyramid?
Posted by verne on November 14, 2006, at 12:49:25
In reply to Re: 5-Flag Vurricaine Warning *trigger*Verne, posted by Phillipa on November 13, 2006, at 23:13:25
As always I hope that's the last time I drink. I just need a few weeks of nothing on the calendar. Thanksgiving isn't a trigger for me so it's clear sailing until Christmas.
I guess I didn't get myself blocked although I took a beating (verbally) at the poker table. It's a mean game and I have to be drinking just to play it. So I'm hoping that was my last poker game too.
Verne
Posted by Damos on November 14, 2006, at 15:32:28
In reply to Quitting For Good » Phillipa, posted by verne on November 14, 2006, at 12:49:25
Hi Verne,
You might want to have a look at "Dry" by Augusten Burroughs, his humour might appeal to you and his descriptions of cleaning out his apartment immediately came to mind when I read your 'pyramid' post.
Good luck mate, take care okay.
Damos
Posted by tofuemmy on November 14, 2006, at 17:06:34
In reply to Quitting For Good » Phillipa, posted by verne on November 14, 2006, at 12:49:25
Verne- Once upon a time I went to a pdoc with a specialty in addictions psychiatry. To help me quit w/o going inpatient, he gave me about 4 days worth of something Xanax-ish. I forget what it was. I basically slept for 4 days...so I started off with 4 days sober. It helped get the ball rolling.
Have you ever tried Topamax or Naltrexone? I dunno. Might help. Take care.
Emmy
Posted by verne on November 14, 2006, at 18:06:52
In reply to Re: Quitting For Good » verne, posted by tofuemmy on November 14, 2006, at 17:06:34
Emmy,
I'll mention those two meds when I see the doc next week. Thanks.
I seem to be in a rut where I drink about 4-5 times per month. The first few days are the easiest for me since I'm too sick to drink. I'm a typical "allergic" alcoholic. Terrible hangovers and ill for days.
I'm currently taken inderal LA and about 1mg of Klonopin per day. Both help with anxiety but my depression is basically untreated and untreatable.
thanks for the suggestions.
Verne
Posted by karen_kay on November 16, 2006, at 10:48:49
In reply to Re: Quitting For Good » verne, posted by tofuemmy on November 14, 2006, at 17:06:34
haven't heard you complaining around these parts for a while. kinda miss it.
good to see your name. (and yes, my boy has a cute butt, jsut like his momma!)
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