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Posted by TexasChic on September 13, 2006, at 20:16:02
Today I was really stretched to my anxiety-self doubt-insecurity-fragile self esteem limit. But I did well. I had to sit with two people (at the same time) telling me what to change in the booklet I had made. Then two others separately (4 in all). Its bad enough for someone to sit there and watch you type, but they sat there and watched while I did Photoshop! Things like, make that stack have more shirts in it, change those pants from blue to green, take that sign out (and apparently just make up what's supposed to be behind it). It was definitely something that needed a steady hand. And one of my manifestations of anxiety is shaking hands, which has been noticed by MANY people. I can't explain what it was like except to compare it to someone watching every word you type, but way worse. But I got through it! And no one said, "OMG, you're terrible at this!!! You don't deserve this job at all!" I even got a little joke about how much better I was than the last girl. :-)
Anyway, I just wanted to throw out a good experience for someone who struggles with anxiety and depression. I felt it was a real accomplishment for me. It wasn't to long ago I wouldn't have been able to do it.
-T
Posted by TexasChic on September 13, 2006, at 20:29:55
In reply to Stressful but good day, posted by TexasChic on September 13, 2006, at 20:16:02
that I giggle everytime I hear someone say, 'Young Men's Bottoms'. They refer to pants as 'bottom' and 'young men's' is the department, so 'young men's bottoms' is a sort of sub-department. I especially get tickled when some seriously dignified guy says it.
It had not occured to a single one of them how funny it sounded. They implied it has to do with my mindset.
-T
Posted by Phillipa on September 13, 2006, at 22:11:10
In reply to Oh, and I finally confessed, posted by TexasChic on September 13, 2006, at 20:29:55
I love to smack guys bottoms . They are so cute. Love Phillipa
Posted by tizza on September 14, 2006, at 1:05:38
In reply to Oh, and I finally confessed, posted by TexasChic on September 13, 2006, at 20:29:55
That's great TC, it sound's like you are doing a great job.
Posted by ju§tyourlaugh on September 14, 2006, at 1:28:10
In reply to Stressful but good day, posted by TexasChic on September 13, 2006, at 20:16:02
truely helpful for me..thank you texas.
even reading your post caused me waves of anxiety.
you go!
Posted by llrrrpp on September 14, 2006, at 7:14:28
In reply to Re: Stressful but good day » TexasChic, posted by ju§tyourlaugh on September 14, 2006, at 1:28:10
Wow Tex,
that sounds pretty intense.
you done great ;o)Young Men's Bottoms... no honey, THEY'RE the wierd ones... You're perfectly rational to giggle. (I think that's the healthiest reaction!)
-ll
Posted by TexasChic on September 16, 2006, at 19:03:30
In reply to Re: Stressful but good day, posted by llrrrpp on September 14, 2006, at 7:14:28
That morning the girl who I'm replacing, who's such an insufferable know-it-all, came up and told me to just let her know if I needed her help to make my deadline. I was like, "Sure" ...over my dead body. I knew she would have a field day if I had to ask her for help. She kept making a really big deal about how much work I had, like there was no way I could possibly finish on time and was too stupid to know it. That made me even more determined to finish on time, which I did (Yea!).
Its so weird, I always knew I was overworked and under appreciated at my other jobs, but they're negative opinions always mingled with my self doubt, so I always half way thought they were right. Its good to know that wasn't necessarily true.
Yesterday, my supervisor told me I had done a REALLY good job and that there had been ALOT of comments about it. I also had two different people in management come to my desk to tell me how impressed they were with my work! All I could think was, this really wasn't all that hard, that other girl must have been REALLY bad! I don't know why its so hard to stop belittling my accomplishments like that.
When know-it-all-girl found out I finished on time, you should have seen her mouth hanging open. Heh, heh.
-T
Posted by llrrrpp on September 16, 2006, at 22:21:08
In reply to Re: Stressful but good day, posted by llrrrpp on September 14, 2006, at 7:14:28
Texas-- you ROCK!
Way to get some kudos! Make them notice the new woman in the office- You are on your WAY!
Great job stepping up to the challenge, and thanks for sharing your good news with us :)
-ll
Posted by TexasChic on September 17, 2006, at 21:14:11
In reply to Re: Stressful but good day » llrrrpp, posted by llrrrpp on September 16, 2006, at 22:21:08
Thanks lurpie. I know I probably come off sounding much more confident than I am, but these little accomplishments really mean alot to me. There was a time I couldn't even communicate with other people. I felt so bad about myself I didn't even know how to TRY for something better. So every little step I take towards a normal life means ALOT to me. Thanks for the support.
-T
Posted by TexasChic on September 17, 2006, at 21:20:16
In reply to Re: Stressful but good day » TexasChic, posted by ju§tyourlaugh on September 14, 2006, at 1:28:10
For some reason at first I thought you were being sarcastic and ridiculing me. That's paranioa for ya!
If my experience inspires even a small positive influence on someone, then everything I've been through was worth it.
-T
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