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Posted by Deneb on December 29, 2005, at 2:30:32
I've been thinking of some worse case scenarios. Any ideas on how to reduce their chance of being real?
1. I go, get there and cannot handle the stress of being in a strange city all by myself with people I don't recognize. I get so distressed that I start getting suicidal again and I actually do it and die. (since I'm so stressed)
2. Same thing as above, but some of you guys haul me off to the loony bin before I kill myself. Good thing I'm an Ontarian and I've have OHIP (health insurance) LOL
3. Same thing as above only instead of killing myself I take an OD of aspirin and get really sick. My kidneys start failing and I develop pulmonary edema and I die accidentally.
4. Same thing as above only instead of dying, someone hauls me off to the hospital. Again, thank goodness for OHIP.
5. I actually have a good time, but then I unexpectedly get a Wellbutrin induced seizure and get hauled off to the hospital and miss having a really fun time.
6. I get so damn nervous in the small groups thing that I throw up all over a small group of pdocs.
7. I get really shy and anxious and don't talk to anyone and get really sad and start crying through the whole dinner experience.
8. I totally get lost and can't find my way to any of the events.
9. I lose my wallet, return ticket and everything.
10. Just before walking into the convention centre, a big seagull drops poop on my head.
11. I step on a big pile of dog poop just before walking into the convention centre and I smell like dog poop the whole time I'm there.
12. I blush intensely whenever someone speaks to me and I can't look into anyone's eyes.
13. I lose my shoes in the hostel I stay at and have to walk to the shoe store bare foot.
14. I start choking on my food at the restaurant we will go to and no one knows the Heimlich maneuver and I die.
15. Same as above, only someone saves me with the Heimlich maneuver but I'm so embarrassed that I could die.
I know there is MUCH more, but I don't want to type a novel here. LOL
Deneb
P.S. Some are obviously jokes, but I don't mean the whole thing to be a joke and therefore the parts about dying are not meant to be jokes. They are simply fears, not meant in a joking way. (Though they are admittedly very outrageous, they are still my fears...real fears.)
Posted by alexandra_k on December 29, 2005, at 3:10:07
In reply to Worse case scenarios for my Toronto trip in May, posted by Deneb on December 29, 2005, at 2:30:32
i think...
maybe i'd be a bit careful about 'joking about death'
because you know what happened last time...
and you know what is likely to happen next time...
and you have 'clarified' that you are 'sort of joking sort of not joking' on a couple of occasions fairly recently...
and the more one pushes the boundary...
the more one is likely to hit upon the limit...
Posted by Larry Hoover on December 29, 2005, at 7:56:38
In reply to Worse case scenarios for my Toronto trip in May, posted by Deneb on December 29, 2005, at 2:30:32
> I've been thinking of some worse case scenarios.
How about substitution?
What if the worst case was that you went to Toronto, met some friendly people who got to know you and liked you anyway, and you came away with such a warm feeling that you realized life wasn't meant to be a fearful experience?
Lar
Posted by Deneb on December 29, 2005, at 14:19:45
In reply to Re: Worse case scenarios for my Toronto trip in May » Deneb, posted by alexandra_k on December 29, 2005, at 3:10:07
Thank-you for the warning Alexandra.
Those worse case scenarios have been on my mind for a while and I wanted to find a way to express them without terrifying people.
Maybe some things are better left unsaid? Sorry, I'm really bad at keeping things in.
Deneb
Posted by Declan on December 29, 2005, at 15:19:59
In reply to Worse case scenarios for my Toronto trip in May, posted by Deneb on December 29, 2005, at 2:30:32
Posted by Poet on December 29, 2005, at 16:19:01
In reply to Worse case scenarios for my Toronto trip in May, posted by Deneb on December 29, 2005, at 2:30:32
Hi Deneb,
Alex is right about the jokes. Self harm is taken very seriously around here as well it should. Lecture over.
My worst case scenario is that I am the only babbler who shows up and my ex and current pdocs are the only ones who sign up for the session.
Meeting the babblers for dinner will be wonderful, trust me on that. I was nervous meeting people in Chicago and nobody turned out to be an evil monster, well I don't know about Dr. Bob, he is a pdoc. ;)
Poet
Posted by James K on December 29, 2005, at 16:24:48
In reply to Worse case scenarios for my Toronto trip in May, posted by Deneb on December 29, 2005, at 2:30:32
One of the reasons I've delayed going out and getting a little retail job is the idea "What if I'm stuck on the cash register and there is a line and I make a mistake and nobody will come help me and I have a panic attack" At that point I'm raising my blood pressure about a hypothetical, one I've actually handled fine in the past.
There is also the self fulfilling prophecy aspect of "I'm going to this party tonight and if some blankety blank starts talking blankety blank, I'm gonna blankety blank!" A great way to prepare for an evening of fun.
So... watch where you step.
Posted by Deneb on December 29, 2005, at 16:49:35
In reply to Re: Worse case scenarios for my Toronto trip in May » Deneb, posted by Poet on December 29, 2005, at 16:19:01
> Hi Deneb,
>
> Alex is right about the jokes. Self harm is taken very seriously around here as well it should. Lecture over.Sorry, I didn't mean to threaten anything. :-(
I really should know better than to express everything in my disturbed mind by now.
>
> My worst case scenario is that I am the only babbler who shows up and my ex and current pdocs are the only ones who sign up for the session.That would be pretty awkward wouldn't it? To have to see your ex and current pdocs there. I'm lucky my pdocs are Canadian.
Deneb
Posted by Deneb on December 29, 2005, at 19:45:21
In reply to Re: Worse case scenarios for my Toronto trip in May » Poet, posted by Deneb on December 29, 2005, at 16:49:35
I hope with all my might that I won't be crazy when I go to Toronto. I hope, I hope, I hope.
Last time I was there I was crazy. I was still in high school and the school had just told my parents that I tried something dangerous.
My cousins took me to Toronto to try to make me happy again. It made me worse...
No one knows it, but I was very close to offing myself during the trip.
My cousins didn't help me by encouraging me to drink wine.
Bad memories, bad bad memories from my trip there.
:-(
Deneb
Posted by Phillipa on December 29, 2005, at 21:00:53
In reply to Re: Worse case scenarios for my Toronto trip in May, posted by Deneb on December 29, 2005, at 19:45:21
Deneb you seem to be catastropicizing. Imagining the worst case scenario. Fondly,Phillipa
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