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Posted by Deneb on September 30, 2005, at 14:59:21
There is only one way to get out of this...OD, I think I'll do it tomorrow.
Don't worry, I'll be OK, I won't take anything lethal.
Posted by Deneb on September 30, 2005, at 15:17:41
In reply to My procrastination is getting out of hand, posted by Deneb on September 30, 2005, at 14:59:21
I don't want to scare my parents again. I don't want to suffer again. I don't want to be a human pin cushion again.
I don't know what to do. I'm not ready for my tests on Tues. I'm going to harm myself if I can't get out of it. Do you think it might be a better idea to go to the doctor and say I feel like I'm going to harm myself if I don't get out of the tests? I'm manipulative, but I know I will harm myself. What do I do? If they won't give me a note I will harm myself. I can't deal with this. I don't care if I accidentally die anymore. I can't stand this.
Posted by Deneb on September 30, 2005, at 15:22:07
In reply to Re: My procrastination is getting out of hand, posted by Deneb on September 30, 2005, at 15:17:41
Posted by rainbowbrite on September 30, 2005, at 15:23:00
In reply to My procrastination is getting out of hand, posted by Deneb on September 30, 2005, at 14:59:21
DEneb, go talk to someone IRL.
Call your pdoc
Posted by 10derHeart on September 30, 2005, at 16:19:51
In reply to Re: My procrastination is getting out of hand, posted by rainbowbrite on September 30, 2005, at 15:23:00
>> Do you think it might be a better idea to go to the doctor and say I feel like I'm going to harm myself if I don't get out of the tests?
YES. YES. YES!
Please, if you were in terrible physical pain, or getting ill all over the place, you'd (I hope) seek help. This is NO different. It really isn't. This is illness, just the same.
Listen to Rain, please. Call your pdoc, and be honest. Don't worry, if he has staff/receptionist - they have heard this before -this is their purpose. You don't have to suffer like this. If you can't reach him, or can't call, please call the crisis line ASAP.
Please take care of you - and an OD will not do that. Remember Dr. Bob's advice? I know you respect and like what you know of him - he told you not to OD and he is right.
We want you here and so does your family.
((Deneb))
Posted by javableue on September 30, 2005, at 16:48:34
In reply to Re: My procrastination is getting out of hand, posted by Deneb on September 30, 2005, at 15:17:41
Deneb, please tell your doctor, or call a crisis line, whatever you can do to get help in person. I know how school stress can be, but it is not worth harming yourself or risking your life. School can wait; you need above all to take care of yourself right now.
jb
Posted by Phillipa on September 30, 2005, at 17:13:12
In reply to Re: My procrastination is getting out of hand » Deneb, posted by javableue on September 30, 2005, at 16:48:34
Deneb if school stresses you out so much. Maybe you should take a semester off and work on your issues. Fondly,Phillipa
Posted by Deneb on September 30, 2005, at 17:16:19
In reply to My procrastination is getting out of hand, posted by Deneb on September 30, 2005, at 14:59:21
I don't get it, I'm not even that overwhelmed...
I just don't feel like doing anything but lie in bed or read posts.I remembered before I OD'd last time that I wasn't really that distressed...I'd just run out of options. I carefully planned it and I just executed it, but people freaked out...I don't want people to freak out.
I can't call my p-doc because it is the weekend. He won't even be there, plus they don't deal with urgent matters.
Tomorrow I will go to the walk-in clinic and just say that I haven't been able to concentrate. I'm not going to be dramatic and cry or anything. I don't think I can cry right now...I'm a zombie. If they don't give me a note, I'll have no other options but to buy the cheapest pills at the pharmacy and OD...just like last time. It's pretty crazy just how many pills one can get for less than $5. I'll have to do this near the morning, just in case I have to go to the hospital. I don't want my parents to find out. Hopefully I won't have to wait 4 hours to be seen at the clinic like last time. Too much time passed and they couldn't give me activated charcoal anymore. I don't want to stay overnight at the ER again.
Yes, that is what I will do. I'm going to study now. I feel much better now knowing my options. I can study now.
Deneb
Posted by JenStar on September 30, 2005, at 17:35:14
In reply to Re: My procrastination is getting out of hand, posted by Deneb on September 30, 2005, at 17:16:19
Deneb,
this kind of reasoing is really flawed. You need to see a professional immediately! Please do!JenStar
Posted by Angela2 on September 30, 2005, at 18:30:21
In reply to My procrastination is getting out of hand, posted by Deneb on September 30, 2005, at 14:59:21
Deneb,
Honey, How is this going to solve your problem? When you have gotten out of the hospital you will be the same procrastinating deneb. I know you are frusterated with yourself. Have you tried going to a study group? Maybe the social pressure will motivate you to study. Like, set a date with a group of people and then you'll have to study, ya know? Please do not OD. You will be hurting yourself and the people who care about you. Is there any other reason you want to do something so drastic? It just doesn't seem logical to overdose on drugs / meds just becuase you procrastinate. When I was in college, I was the queen of procrastination. It was hard to accept at first, becuase I wanted to do well. But then I realized, this was who I was. I lowered my standards and ya know, getting a C or even a D doesn't hurt. ODing hurts more. I hope you feel better. Post here whenever you want. We are listening.
Posted by Deneb on September 30, 2005, at 18:44:01
In reply to Re: My procrastination is getting out of hand, posted by Angela2 on September 30, 2005, at 18:30:21
> Deneb,
> Honey, How is this going to solve your problem?You are right...it probably won't solve my problem. After my stay at the hospital I was worst off than before and I ended up having to drop my semester...it was a bad idea.
OK, I just did some actual studying and I'm calmer now. I think I'm OK for the molecular biology class. I think I have a pretty good grasp of the concepts and mechanisms in that class.
OK, I'm going to continue studying for molecular biology tonight because it is not such a hard subject for me. Then I'm going to do my chemistry problems. OK, I think it will be OK. I still have until Monday night to study. I've crammed before and I've been able to do relatively well. There is not *that* much material to study for yet...I should have time.
Right now I'm going to study until I lose my concentration and then I'll do something else for a few minutes, like read Babble posts. Then I'll go back to studying. I will study late into the night today and wake up early tomorrow to study. There are actually a lot of hours. I don't have anything else to do except study...it's going to be OK.
It's going to be OK.
Deneb
Posted by Deneb on September 30, 2005, at 19:35:58
In reply to Re: My procrastination is getting out of hand, posted by Deneb on September 30, 2005, at 18:44:01
I just did some more studying. I have to write notes for two more lectures of molecular biology and I would have gone through all the material for the test on Tues.
Then I will go through the questions I wrote (that is how I write my notes, in the form of questions and answers).
Then I will do my organic chemistry problems. I have three assignments with problems to complete. I've done 70% of assignment one. I still have quite a bit to study for in chemistry. Luckily this first test is not worth too much...5 or 10%. I will not waste my time reading the textbook, I will concentrate on the notes taken in class and in the tutorials. It's going to be OK. There aren't that many things to memorize in organic chem...it's more about understanding.
Deneb
Posted by Deneb on September 30, 2005, at 21:39:10
In reply to Re: My procrastination is getting out of hand, posted by Deneb on September 30, 2005, at 19:35:58
I'm still studying!
Anxiety fading...fading...
I would just like to thank you guys for helping me through this crisis. I'm not sure I could have done this without your help.
I'm just going to study, I'm not going to get that note anymore. It is much better to simply study.
I think I have problems...I don't think normal people get so distressed over procrastination.
Deneb
Posted by rainbowbrite on October 1, 2005, at 9:42:23
In reply to Re: My procrastination is getting out of hand, posted by Deneb on September 30, 2005, at 21:39:10
Are you feeling better? Hope you got lots done. Im in the same situation as you right now but you are way ahead of me!
Its always better to get the work in on time so it doesnt start piling up, But try to keep it in the back of your mind when you start feeling like you were. It can be helpful to know you can bipass the deadline if you need to.
Posted by Angela2 on October 1, 2005, at 11:11:52
In reply to Re: My procrastination is getting out of hand, posted by Deneb on September 30, 2005, at 21:39:10
Hey, Glad you're feeling better. Have you talked to your pdoc or t about this?
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