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Posted by smokeymadison on August 3, 2005, at 18:03:21
i really didn't think that much of having an MRI of my brain (b/c of migraines) until i was in that machine and the technician injected me with this dye so they could see my brain more clearly. then i started to really think about what they are making sure i don't have--a tumor.
it didn't help that the technician's demeanor changed slightly after the MRI. i mean, he was very friendly and lighthearted one moment and then afterward he seemed a bit withdrawn and tight-lipped. i might have just made that up in my mind, though.
so the rest of today i have been panicky and thinking what the h*ll i would do if i had say, six months to live. i can't believe that i was so confident that there was no growth or tumor yesterday and now i am almost betting on it.
i think the most important thing i would do if i had at least nine months would be to have a child with my boyfriend. is that weird? i sort of think that it is the last thing that i have not done that i would really what to do. but i shouldn't be thinking this way. i will know in a few days.
SM
Posted by JenStar on August 3, 2005, at 18:54:53
In reply to freaked out--had an MRI this morning of brain, posted by smokeymadison on August 3, 2005, at 18:03:21
Hello SM,
I'm sorry you're having worries about the MRI. I can empathize with what you're going through, because I had to get two MRIs in the past to make sure that I didn't have multiple sclerosis (it turns out I don't, luckily!)I too tried to analyze facial features gestures and body language of the technician to try to interpret whether or not he could see something horrible in my brain.
But I think that once they're done with the scans, they're really just focused on uploading the data and getting ready for the next patient. That may be why their demeanor becomes more businesslike and withdrawn.
I know it's pointless to tell you to relax while you're waiting for the results, because I surely wasn't able to, and I completely freaked out waiting for my results. I definitely had to use a Xanax from my doctor daily until I got the results. It helped me stay a little bit less anxious.
I truly hope you're going to be OK, and I hope that you get the results soon so that you don't need to worry too much. Please keep posting as much as you need to, and hopefully we can help with the anxiety just a tiny bit.
Take care and good luck.
JenStar
Posted by Shortelise on August 4, 2005, at 11:45:54
In reply to freaked out--had an MRI this morning of brain, posted by smokeymadison on August 3, 2005, at 18:03:21
Ick. Ick. ICK!
http://www.migrainepage.com/cgi-bin/dcforum/dcboard.cgi
the above is a great place for mig support and info. THey are not as kind there as we are here, they are migraine focussed, not psyche focussed, but there is some great info there.
I am also a migrainer.
The tech probably had to go to the bathroom. Was thinking, oh, why did I eat all of those dried apricots this morning?
Keep us posted.
ShortE
Posted by smokeymadison on August 4, 2005, at 14:31:57
In reply to Re: freaked out--had an MRI this morning of brain » smokeymadison, posted by Shortelise on August 4, 2005, at 11:45:54
i saw my T this morning and she asked me if i was painting my apartment black or something when i told her what i would do if i were given six months or so. i laughed, but i think that i have every right to think of what i would do. you have to be prepared, right?
i talked to my boyfriend and he said to stop worrying. like that is going to happen. he did say that he would marry me and have a kid if i were going to die. i thanked him for that. that is nice to know.
SM
Posted by JenStar on August 5, 2005, at 1:09:16
In reply to thanks--T thinks i am being morbid, posted by smokeymadison on August 4, 2005, at 14:31:57
Well, I think it's hard NOT to think about the negative side of things. At least while you're waiting. I'm not sure that everyone "gets" that. It's all well and good to tell someone to 'stay positive' and 'look on the bright side' and 'embrace life,' but when it's YOU that's waiting for a potentially life-changing diagnosis, it's hard to think of anything but that. At least, it was for me. And my therapist kept telling me the same things, and I was completely unable to work on anything until I KNEW, one way or the other. Being in limbo was impossibly awful.
I'm sure you'll be OK, and I hope the results come soon!
And give yourself time, you'll eventually be able to get past your current position.
Take care! :)
JenStar
Posted by bimini on August 5, 2005, at 19:58:54
In reply to freaked out--had an MRI this morning of brain, posted by smokeymadison on August 3, 2005, at 18:03:21
If there was reason to worry you would have heard from the the radiologist or your neuro right away. The technician cannot say anything.
I had an MRI and the technician looked at me a bit different. I got the call about one week later. Neuro said the results were abnormal, but not to worry, it was nothing bad. Man, I hadn't worried until he said that.
Well, abnormal is nothing good either. He never explained what was going on and didn't show me the films.
Not knowing is far worse than seeing with own eyes and getting an explanation.
bimini
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