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Posted by AdaGrace on July 11, 2005, at 10:33:27
I realize this.
But today, I just feel excrutiating pain and the tears won't go away.
I've created more turmoil in my life and I've been stabbed repeatedly in the heart lately.
I cannot turn the emotions off, and I have let myself run out of my perscription. Two weeks and counting of an emotional hell created by withdrawals.
Suicidal thoughts are circling my head like sharks after fresh meat.
I'm scared.
I'm hurting.
I'm disoriented.And yet I am at work.
Go figure.
Posted by sleepygirl on July 11, 2005, at 12:31:28
In reply to I only complain, I don't help, posted by AdaGrace on July 11, 2005, at 10:33:27
sweetheart, some days, complaining is all we can do, it's OK, I think everyone here can relate. There are no requirements for posting here!! As far as help goes, well you need that right now. So I wonder if you can call your doctor, keep posting, take it easy, know this will pass....
-sleepy
Posted by sleepygirl on July 11, 2005, at 12:54:25
In reply to I only complain, I don't help, posted by AdaGrace on July 11, 2005, at 10:33:27
ouch, I just read your poems on the writing board. You don't to deserve to feel this way!! You deserve to be respected, listened to, cared about. It can be excruciatingly painful to want that and not get it, but you are not to blame!
I wish I could ease the pain...I'm so sorry you're in so much pain.
Posted by AdaGrace on July 11, 2005, at 23:39:03
In reply to Re: I only complain, I don't help, posted by sleepygirl on July 11, 2005, at 12:54:25
I cannot seem to stop this never ending thing I have about thinking I am nothing and therefore deserve to be treated as such.
Call my doctor. That would be great if I had one, but really, why. I left with no forwarding appintment after only 3. They didn't ask me why, and noone seems to be concerned and looking for me.
Posted by Damos on July 12, 2005, at 17:28:04
In reply to Re: I disagree, posted by AdaGrace on July 11, 2005, at 23:39:03
> I cannot seem to stop this never ending thing I have about thinking I am nothing and therefore deserve to be treated as such.
This is me.
I force myself to get up and out of bed everyday and drag myself into work because I know if I don't it will be just step from turning off the lights, closing the door, collapsing inwards and disintegrating completely. Mind you I think a lot of people would be happier if I did that.
Posted by sleepygirl on July 12, 2005, at 22:05:47
In reply to Re: I disagree, posted by AdaGrace on July 11, 2005, at 23:39:03
Posted by AdaGrace on July 13, 2005, at 17:04:00
In reply to Re: I disagree » AdaGrace, posted by Damos on July 12, 2005, at 17:28:04
You've just described the struggle of suicidal tendencies. You realize that?
Posted by Damos on July 14, 2005, at 17:00:37
In reply to Re: I disagree » Damos, posted by AdaGrace on July 13, 2005, at 17:04:00
> You've just described the struggle of suicidal tendencies. You realize that?
Yikes!!!!!!! (slaps self about the face a bit) Ahhh, that feels better.
May have described the stuggle, but fortunately am not in 'that' place. Went there once and was saved by a four legged miracle and promised myself I'd never go there again. Might not have a love of my own (or myself) or a sense of purpose blah, blah, blah.
But what I do have is this sense of connectedness to some amazing people that makes me want to get up and get into work and to the net to see how they're doing and to want to help and be there in any way I can. Whether they realise it or not, they make make me want to keep on trying to be a better man, friend, human being. Each and every one of them is incredibly precious to me in their own special way and I love them dearly. The most important thing in my life right now is letting the people I love and care about know it every chance I get. Yes Gracie that means you.
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