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Posted by AdaGrace on November 12, 2004, at 21:08:13
I can see right through me. Can everyone else? I am nothing inside. It is empty. Nothing there. I realized this today, when I looked in the mirror, and noone was looking back.
Posted by JenStar on November 12, 2004, at 21:43:55
In reply to I feel transparent, posted by AdaGrace on November 12, 2004, at 21:08:13
what would you like to see, instead of emptiness?
JenStar
Posted by deirdrehbrt on November 12, 2004, at 22:37:57
In reply to I feel transparent, posted by AdaGrace on November 12, 2004, at 21:08:13
Ada, I can relate... sort of. I don't like looking in the mirror because I don't like what I see, and having DID, I'm sometimes afraid of WHO I'll see looking back.
Dee
Posted by boomarang on November 12, 2004, at 23:39:58
In reply to Re: I feel transparent, posted by deirdrehbrt on November 12, 2004, at 22:37:57
Posted by just plain jane on November 12, 2004, at 23:51:02
In reply to I feel transparent, posted by AdaGrace on November 12, 2004, at 21:08:13
AdaGrace,
It may feel empty, but in order to look, in order to perceive, and in order to convey your feelings to us, there has to be someone in there.
Posted by verne on November 13, 2004, at 0:35:40
In reply to I feel transparent, posted by AdaGrace on November 12, 2004, at 21:08:13
I'm a borderliner with intense feelings of emptiness and when I look in the mirror it kind of wakes me up. I mean, I feel "less" empty although I wouldn't say it is a cure.
Looking in the mirror for me is a mixed bag of "there you are" and "who are you?".
I can relate to the emptiness.
verne
Posted by jakeman on November 13, 2004, at 1:08:59
In reply to I feel transparent, posted by AdaGrace on November 12, 2004, at 21:08:13
I feel the same way. I have something to share with you, email me if you wish.
Posted by alexandra_k on November 13, 2004, at 2:32:41
In reply to I feel transparent, posted by AdaGrace on November 12, 2004, at 21:08:13
I was thinking about this a few days ago:
http://dr-bob.org/babble/social/20041105/msgs/414470.html
I feel it too.
Posted by saw on November 13, 2004, at 5:06:06
In reply to Re: I feel transparent » AdaGrace, posted by alexandra_k on November 13, 2004, at 2:32:41
Inbetween feeling unproductive feelings of self loathing, I feel this too. I share your feelings. So I will share with you that I also see you as beautiful, sensitive, loving, supportive, caring, funny, wonderfully funny. I see you as a very, very good friend.
Sabrina
Posted by partlycloudy on November 13, 2004, at 7:11:20
In reply to I feel transparent, posted by AdaGrace on November 12, 2004, at 21:08:13
I can see you too. You're someone who reaches out and supports others here. You are also someone who can ask for support, the hardest thing of all. You're smart, funny, and steadfast.
Posted by AdaGrace on November 13, 2004, at 8:02:56
In reply to Re: I feel transparent » AdaGrace, posted by JenStar on November 12, 2004, at 21:43:55
Not sure, perhaps, Meg Ryan?
Posted by AdaGrace on November 13, 2004, at 8:09:25
In reply to I feel transparent, posted by AdaGrace on November 12, 2004, at 21:08:13
Is that better?
Thank you all, is it not apparent that last night when I posted that, I had been drinking and was again alone. It is so sickening the depression that the drinking brings on, but alas I cannot stop myself.
I often feel wrapped up in a dark black cloud that I cannot find my way out of.
I'm better this morning, the sun is out. Literally.
I just feel so bad for SAW. I feel so bad for anyone else in pain. And sometimes my feelings for others take over my own despair, but I think this is a good thing.
I someday soon will find myself. I someday soon will look into the mirror and see those dark brown eyes that know so much and I will be thankful for the things I have experienced for they will be used as learning tools instead of vices for depression and self doubt.
This place is now my home, and I feel welcome.
Thank you all, I am here for you as well as you being here for me.
Thank you Dr. Bob for this site, and Thank you for allowing me to be here.
Respectfully,
AdaGrace
Posted by partlycloudy on November 13, 2004, at 9:04:03
In reply to Re: I feel opaque, posted by AdaGrace on November 13, 2004, at 8:09:25
That's why I love this place, too. We can give, and when we need, we can receive here. It's a gift.
Posted by AdaGrace on November 14, 2004, at 10:23:51
In reply to Re: I feel transparent, posted by jakeman on November 13, 2004, at 1:08:59
It says your babblemail function is turned off.
Posted by AdaGrace on November 14, 2004, at 10:26:25
In reply to Re: I feel transparent » AdaGrace, posted by alexandra_k on November 13, 2004, at 2:32:41
I understand, and it's hard to feel unloved. Extreemly hard.
Sadly though, it is even harder to not feel the love that someone is so desparately trying to show you because you are shutting them out.
Sadddddddddddddddd
Posted by jakeman on November 16, 2004, at 0:19:39
In reply to Re: I feel transparent » jakeman, posted by AdaGrace on November 14, 2004, at 10:23:51
Sorry Ada, I'm having problems with the system. One of my messages was wiped out. I'll try later.
Posted by sunny10 on November 16, 2004, at 19:21:36
In reply to Re: I feel transparent » alexandra_k, posted by AdaGrace on November 14, 2004, at 10:26:25
can you ask your T to help you learn skills to accept the love as a part of support? I feel you missing it...
Posted by just plain jane on November 18, 2004, at 19:42:10
In reply to Re: I feel opaque, posted by AdaGrace on November 13, 2004, at 8:09:25
That's funny, you don't smell opaque.
;O
Posted by AdaGrace on November 19, 2004, at 7:33:03
In reply to Re: I feel opaque » AdaGrace, posted by just plain jane on November 18, 2004, at 19:42:10
That's that lovely perfume my daughter talked me into buying from Abercrombie & Fitch.......smells like ummmmm shhhhhhh (sex appeal)
Ohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh AdaGrace got her Mojo Back
Posted by sunny10 on November 19, 2004, at 8:57:08
In reply to Re: I feel opaque » just plain jane, posted by AdaGrace on November 19, 2004, at 7:33:03
good for you, AgaGrace!!!!
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