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Posted by ghost on June 22, 2004, at 1:27:22
well, i left this afternoon after many errands i hadn't expected to run (this made me frazzled and irritable, but some friends saw me off proper with some illegal plant matter that made me less irritable and much more relaxed). i made it to kansas city from lincoln by 9pm, however.
i stopped on the way and bought sobe "courage." i thought this might help.
i'm at my friend's house now. we had a great time talking and looking at pictures, but i'm still nervous about being here. really i'm only here two days, since i'm leaving thursday morning, but still. i worry about overstaying my welcome, about being seen as an idiot, about slipping and acting crazy, or not slipping but not being able to stay in control. i took my lamictal a few hrs late, and i pray i don't forget any meds while i'm in the presence of other people. the last thing i need is to start talking to myself or something equally insane.
anyhow. i'm alive. i'm reading the boards but i probably won't be posting much. trying to be a good guest and not be too nerdy. (but he's got wireless and i have my laptop!) i'm keeping a trip journal and am going to make a scrapbook when i get to my final destination, but i thought i'd record some of the thoughts that won't go into my journal (like the craziness) here. i don't know why. for my own personal knowledge, i guess. it's interesting to track my moods in my various posts and i haven't even been posting here long.
anyhow. i'm going to try to sleep. we'll see what tomorrow brings....
ghost
Posted by partlycloudy on June 22, 2004, at 8:04:34
In reply to ghost's road trip 2004, posted by ghost on June 22, 2004, at 1:27:22
I look forward to reading about your journey. Drive carefully and enjoy the hospitality! Tell your friends you're taking allergy meds if they ask - it's more important to stay on your schedule (sorry, that's the unexpressed Mamma in me).
Bon voyage.
Posted by ghost on June 22, 2004, at 9:48:22
In reply to Re: ghost's road trip 2004 » ghost, posted by partlycloudy on June 22, 2004, at 8:04:34
Posted by TexasChic on June 22, 2004, at 10:12:18
In reply to ghost's road trip 2004, posted by ghost on June 22, 2004, at 1:27:22
Roadtrips by yourself can be fun. Just be sure to have plenty of tunes or books on tape. Or you can just roll down the windows and enjoy the fresh air and scenery. Be sure to stop and rest when you need to. I hope you have fun. You deserve it Ghost!!!
Posted by Scott in Vermont on June 22, 2004, at 12:18:44
In reply to ghost's road trip 2004, posted by ghost on June 22, 2004, at 1:27:22
Posted by Angel Girl on June 23, 2004, at 5:16:43
In reply to ghost's road trip 2004, posted by ghost on June 22, 2004, at 1:27:22
> well, i left this afternoon after many errands i hadn't expected to run (this made me frazzled and irritable, but some friends saw me off proper with some illegal plant matter that made me less irritable and much more relaxed). i made it to kansas city from lincoln by 9pm, however.
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> i stopped on the way and bought sobe "courage." i thought this might help.
>
> i'm at my friend's house now. we had a great time talking and looking at pictures, but i'm still nervous about being here. really i'm only here two days, since i'm leaving thursday morning, but still. i worry about overstaying my welcome, about being seen as an idiot, about slipping and acting crazy, or not slipping but not being able to stay in control. i took my lamictal a few hrs late, and i pray i don't forget any meds while i'm in the presence of other people. the last thing i need is to start talking to myself or something equally insane.
>
> anyhow. i'm alive. i'm reading the boards but i probably won't be posting much. trying to be a good guest and not be too nerdy. (but he's got wireless and i have my laptop!) i'm keeping a trip journal and am going to make a scrapbook when i get to my final destination, but i thought i'd record some of the thoughts that won't go into my journal (like the craziness) here. i don't know why. for my own personal knowledge, i guess. it's interesting to track my moods in my various posts and i haven't even been posting here long.
>
> anyhow. i'm going to try to sleep. we'll see what tomorrow brings....
>
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> ghost
ghostGood to hear from you. Keep checking in with us. I'd love to hear how your journey is going and don't worry about overstaying your welcome. You're only there for 2 days.
Drive safely and enjoy your trip.
AG
Posted by ghost on June 24, 2004, at 7:46:22
In reply to ghost's road trip 2004, posted by ghost on June 22, 2004, at 1:27:22
i'm still in KC, but last night I got to sleep at my friend's house whom i normally stay with, so it was much more relaxing and fun. this friend has this incredible presence and their house is extremely calming and soothing-- and they have pets! my allergies are killing me, but i can't resist their sweet animals. i also got to sleep in a bed instead of the floor, which was nice. heh.
she also completely understands what i'm going through emotionally right now, and she's just great. i'm glad my trip's becoming better than i expected.
today i leave for wisconsin and i don't think i'll have internet access while i'm up there. i'll be going to a phish show! i'll be the only non-hippie girl there i bet! hopefully it won't be dull. heh.
after wisconsin, i head to chicago and i plan on staying at a hotel with internet access, because i'm a junkie and i admit it. (i'll take LG's advice and try to find a drury inn, with their free internet!)
much love to all of you babblers,
ghost
Posted by antigua on June 24, 2004, at 10:12:29
In reply to Re: ghost's road trip 2004, posted by ghost on June 24, 2004, at 7:46:22
I feel like I'm having a vacation w/o going anywhere! I'm enjoying your progress. Have fun and keep safe,
antigua
Posted by partlycloudy on June 24, 2004, at 10:33:00
In reply to Re: ghost's road trip 2004, posted by ghost on June 24, 2004, at 7:46:22
Oh, good! I've never been to Wisconsin!
Posted by ghost on June 29, 2004, at 15:09:37
In reply to Re: ghost's road trip 2004 » ghost, posted by partlycloudy on June 24, 2004, at 10:33:00
hello from indiana!
wisconsin was... eventful. we went to a phish concert. my friend's car broke down on our way out of the concert (we could literally SEE the exit, after waiting for 2.5 hrs to get out). we spent the night calling AAA, restarting the car, cancelling AAA, and finally getting towed at 5am to a garage that opened at 8. No sleep! Eventually it turned out to be a problem that couldn't be fixed right away, so we caught a ride from his parents (2.5 hrs away), eventually making it back to his parents' house at 6pm. I'm still catching up from sleep from that night!
Sunday night, I stayed in a hotel after going to Chicago to eat at this famous mashed potato restaurant-- only to find out that that place has become the Coyote Ugly Saloon. very sad.
Anyhow, so I made it to Indiana, where I'm staying with old friends. I have a history with these people, so it's slightly stressful, but I'm thinking I can handle it. And if i can't, I'll just leave early. I'm thinking I'll be here for another few days. Then it's off to Ohio.
I'm glad you guys are following me. It's like having an on-the-road support group :)
ghost
Posted by partlycloudy on June 29, 2004, at 17:46:31
In reply to Re: ghost's road trip 2004, posted by ghost on June 29, 2004, at 15:09:37
Indiana is another place I've never been. I've only ever heard of Goshen and Gary (from The Music Man). Tell us all about it!
Posted by ghost on June 30, 2004, at 9:55:37
In reply to Re: ghost's road trip 2004 » ghost, posted by partlycloudy on June 29, 2004, at 17:46:31
Indiana is very flat. Heh. But the thunderstorms are INCREDIBLE. Truly amazing.
> Indiana is another place I've never been. I've only ever heard of Goshen and Gary (from The Music Man). Tell us all about it!
Posted by TexasChic on June 30, 2004, at 14:37:13
In reply to Re: ghost's road trip 2004, posted by ghost on June 29, 2004, at 15:09:37
It sounds like you're having fun! I would love to see more of the country. I haven't even seen New Mexico or Louisiana, which are the states on either side of me!
Posted by lonelygirl on June 30, 2004, at 16:33:47
In reply to Re: ghost's road trip 2004, posted by ghost on June 29, 2004, at 15:09:37
What part of Ohio are you going to be passing through? Are you stopping there?
Posted by ghost on July 1, 2004, at 7:35:04
In reply to Re: ghost's road trip 2004 » ghost, posted by lonelygirl on June 30, 2004, at 16:33:47
columbus, OH (a suburb), on I-70? i'll be staying there for a night or two, but my schedule's very flexible.
Posted by gardenergirl on July 1, 2004, at 23:44:59
In reply to Re: ghost's road trip 2004 » lonelygirl, posted by ghost on July 1, 2004, at 7:35:04
Give a shout to the south as you get into Ohio. I'm in the southwest part.
And your impression of Indiana matches mine! LOL.
Be safe and enjoy.
gg
Posted by lonelygirl on July 1, 2004, at 23:49:38
In reply to Re: ghost's road trip 2004, posted by gardenergirl on July 1, 2004, at 23:44:59
And I am in the opposite part as where gardenergirl is.
Posted by ghost on July 4, 2004, at 12:28:29
In reply to Re: ghost's road trip 2004, posted by ghost on June 30, 2004, at 9:55:37
greetings from indiana. i made it here okay. the stress levels were up at first (i have a history with the folks i'm staying with that maybe i'll go into another time), but things are going much better, and i'm having fun. today we're going to their neice's 2nd birthday party.
it's relatively fun also because they have three kids who take naps, so i get daily naps myself :)
we also went to the Fort Wayne Zoo, which was a great time.
i leave here tomorrow and head towards ohio. i'm sorry to go, but i know it's time. so that feels good.
i've also sent out resumes to a few jobs since i havent heard anything from my "big lead" from before yet. i have to feel like i'm doing SOMETHING. and i've decided to get a low-stress job at someplace like a movie theatre when i get to NH instead of worrying too much. that way i'll pay the bills i have to pay (i hope) and not lose sleep over not working at my "dream job."
Posted by partlycloudy on July 4, 2004, at 13:19:56
In reply to Re: ghost's road trip 2004, posted by ghost on July 4, 2004, at 12:28:29
Bye, bye Indiana. I like your idea about getting a job while you're waiting for one you want. Enjoy your naps! What a treat!
Posted by ghost on July 6, 2004, at 0:29:04
In reply to Re: ghost's road trip 2004, posted by ghost on July 4, 2004, at 12:28:29
greetings from ohio! i made it here just fine, and had a great dinner out with my friend. we ate way too much fried food. :) insomnia has hit me yet again, but she gave me one of her trazodones so hopefully i'll get a good night's sleep (i had to take some xanax too to turn off my mind). i feel pretty good, though-- this girl's a lot of fun and totally understands my situation (mental health and stuff), and it's nice to be a step closer to my destination.
she showed me a scrapbook-like photoalbum she made her friend, and it gave me TONS of ideas for the one i want to make when i get to new hampshire. i'm really excited. i hope i have enough cash left over to buy scrapbooking things. :)
yay, ohio!
Posted by gardenergirl on July 6, 2004, at 7:27:31
In reply to Re: ghost's road trip 2004, posted by ghost on July 6, 2004, at 0:29:04
Welcome to Ohio. I get to Columbus about once a month for school/business stuff. It's a great city.
Thanks for keeping us updated. It's nice to travel vicariously.
Take care,
gg
Posted by partlycloudy on July 6, 2004, at 8:41:27
In reply to Re: ghost's road trip 2004, posted by ghost on July 6, 2004, at 0:29:04
Wow, you are zipping along! I have tried to do scrapbooking (my older, smarter, more talented sister gave me all the stuff to start) and I couldn't get the hang of it. So now I stick post-its on photos as soon as I get them developed so I don't forget where I was and who WAS that person?
Posted by ghost on July 8, 2004, at 11:33:19
In reply to Re: ghost's road trip 2004, posted by ghost on July 6, 2004, at 0:29:04
greetings from northern VA/DC! i made it. i slept a LOT in ohio, so i feel a lot better. i'm staying with a family friend here in NoVa, one i haven't seen in a long time, so it's nice. she's doing an internship down here but is from my home state of CT.
right now i'm at a panera bread co. with a cookie and iced tea and on my laptop :)
Posted by ghost on July 12, 2004, at 12:04:28
In reply to Re: ghost's road trip 2004, posted by ghost on July 8, 2004, at 11:33:19
greetings from new haven connecticut. i posted photos from a fun day at the NYC museum of natural history at http://www.autoneurotic.net/gallery/AMNH (i'm not sure if posting photos of yourself is a no-no here or not, but i think i'll just not care... they're funny photos, and i want to post them so i'm gonna). i'm killing time in new haven until the afternoon when i'm going to go out to dinner with some family friends, and then I should be in NH by the evening-- my next post should be me at home, safe and sound!
hugs to you sweet folks following me...
ghost
Posted by ghost on July 12, 2004, at 12:22:10
In reply to Re: ghost's road trip 2004, posted by ghost on July 8, 2004, at 11:33:19
it's interesting how having so much "fun," one can still feel out of place and lonely. i've seen a lot of people but related to almost none of them, and even the one person i could relate to, it was hard to open up and i didn't spend nearly enough time with her to open up anyway. oddly, when i read about and infer everyone's friendships here on babble, it makes me feel sad-- i still feel like an outsider sometimes. it's funny how my feelings and thoughts flipflip from fun and happy to sad and lonely. it just goes to show that we're never cured... our symptoms are only controlled (somteimes). i'm sure it doesnt help that i'm currently sitting in a coffeeshop in a city where i spent the four years of my life prior to the one i spent in lincoln-- where i left an exgf of nearly 4 years, an undergraduate education that burned me out, among other things. i'm surrounded by sad memories.
i'm supposed to meet with some family friends for dinner. one is home, but i don't feel very close to him (sometimes he creeps me out anyway), so i don't want to be there alone with him... so i'm killing time until the woman i do know well enough gets home from work. few more hours. a few more hours, and i don't think i'll come back here.
i called my exgf because i forgot i had a birthday present for her (i'm a sucker, but she sends me stuff too), but no answer. might be for the best. i'll mail it to her when i get to nh. that might be for the best. not sure i could handle seeing too many people from my past... it's my past that put me in this state. (on the other hand, it's made me who i am...)
maybe i just needed to ramble and get this out. maybe i shouldn't have ruined the upbeat thread of the roadtrip with this post. but i guess this is my thread and i can do what i want with it. and like most things in my life, there seems to be a sad undertone to it. i'm having fun, but it's all on the surface. deep down, i'm still me. sad and alone. you can change the background, but the big picture is still the same.
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