![[dr. bob]](/dr-bob-sm.gif)
Dr. Bob is Robert Hsiung, MD,
bob@dr-bob.orgShown: posts 1 to 8 of 8. This is the beginning of the thread.
Posted by Tootercat on March 3, 2004, at 14:49:42
And I am not happy! Due to life events I basically fell apart for about 2 months. Well for the most part I am back except I can't seem to get back on track concentrating at work and doing my job.
I just got dressed down today because my boss says I have been spending way too much time on the phone on personal calls and he noticed that I was "chatting" the other day on the computer. Well the pi**er of it all is that he is right and I know I've been looking for trouble to happen and it finally did! I kept trying to do my job but it was so much more relaxing and gratifying to play games, chat, check babble, etc etc. It's like I wanted to get caught so that I could get mad and do my job...how stupid is that??? So see now I'm feeling guilty and angry and unsociable but I'm focused on work again.
Why does it take a crisis to get me motivated????? I hate it!!!I feel like crying and hitting something at the same time. And I have other things going on that I have no control over and I'm sad and scared and feeling crazy.
Well so much for being the support today....I'm a basket case.
Toots
Posted by rainyday on March 3, 2004, at 14:53:03
In reply to I feel like a 7 year old who's been caught!, posted by Tootercat on March 3, 2004, at 14:49:42
My favourite keystroke is alt-tab. Have you ever seen the website for Car Talk (it's a radio program on NPR)? They have a "boss" button that throws up official looking goobledegook when pressed. Should be on ALL sites.
I feel wicked guilty when not working too, but I figure this place is helping me get through these particular eight hours.
Posted by socialdeviantjeff on March 3, 2004, at 16:00:46
In reply to Re: I feel like a 7 year old who's been caught!, posted by rainyday on March 3, 2004, at 14:53:03
One job I had, (in my best mental health year, I might add) I would sometimes spend 8 hours on Ebay and various sites obsessing over cars. Especially Alfa-Romeo Spiders and Volvos. (I have a Volvo 740) Thank God they never checked their web logs. I was kind of the boss.
It's frustrating to not be able to focus. Sadly I don't have anything more constructive for you, but I definitely know how it feels. Personally, I think that as long as the important stuff gets done on time the way the rest of my work time should be spent in ways I choose. Seems like self indulgence but it's really sanity maintenance.
Posted by All Done on March 3, 2004, at 18:37:35
In reply to I feel like a 7 year old who's been caught!, posted by Tootercat on March 3, 2004, at 14:49:42
(((((Toots))))),
Sounds like you've had a pretty crappy day. I'm really sorry to hear that :(. I know what you mean about it taking a crisis to get motivated. I haven't always been that way, but I am now and I'm not sure how to get out of that cycle. So, unfortunately I don't have any constructive advice for you.
I don't know if this would help you, but there is an anti-addiction function on this site so that you can set how much you can refresh the pages or something like that. I don't use it - probably should, though.
Please take care of yourself and let me know if there's anything I can do to help. I hope your back to feeling better soon.
All Done
Posted by All Done on March 4, 2004, at 2:52:07
In reply to I feel like a 7 year old who's been caught!, posted by Tootercat on March 3, 2004, at 14:49:42
Toots,
I just want to let you know that I really didn't mean to imply in any way that I (or we) don't want you here as much as possible. I'm thinking my suggestion might have sounded that way and I'm so sorry if it did. I just meant it as a suggestion to reduce the possible amount of grief at work. I know it stinks to have to deal with that kind of stuff and I would much rather you didn't have to.
So, again, I'm sorry if my post sounded bad. You've been so kind to me and everyone here and we just love having you around!
Let us know how you're doing.
Take care,
All Done
Posted by Tootercat on March 4, 2004, at 9:53:45
In reply to Uh oh - See All Done backpedal :( » Tootercat, posted by All Done on March 4, 2004, at 2:52:07
Not to worry I didn't misconstrue your post my dear. Things will work out. I think alot of it has to do with how I grew up. I know how to function when I am "in trouble". Actually functioning and doing things when I am on an even playing field baffles me.....I suffer from some form of ADD and staying focused is hard for me unless someone gives me a "plan"..
And I am not going anywhere...I love this place and the people.Thanks for your kind words too. I hope that somehow I give back as much as I take.
Toots :)
Posted by Angielala on March 4, 2004, at 12:14:38
In reply to I feel like a 7 year old who's been caught!, posted by Tootercat on March 3, 2004, at 14:49:42
Honey!! I'm so sorry- update me with how it is now... I feel like this is all my fault :(
> And I am not happy! Due to life events I basically fell apart for about 2 months. Well for the most part I am back except I can't seem to get back on track concentrating at work and doing my job.
>
> I just got dressed down today because my boss says I have been spending way too much time on the phone on personal calls and he noticed that I was "chatting" the other day on the computer. Well the pi**er of it all is that he is right and I know I've been looking for trouble to happen and it finally did! I kept trying to do my job but it was so much more relaxing and gratifying to play games, chat, check babble, etc etc. It's like I wanted to get caught so that I could get mad and do my job...how stupid is that??? So see now I'm feeling guilty and angry and unsociable but I'm focused on work again.
> Why does it take a crisis to get me motivated????? I hate it!!!
>
> I feel like crying and hitting something at the same time. And I have other things going on that I have no control over and I'm sad and scared and feeling crazy.
>
> Well so much for being the support today....I'm a basket case.
>
> Toots
Posted by Tootercat on March 4, 2004, at 12:33:57
In reply to Re: I feel like a 7 year old who's been caught!, posted by Angielala on March 4, 2004, at 12:14:38
Oh heavens sweetie don't even take on that responsibility! This is about me and my patterns and my ADD and and and.....you didn't boot up my computer and make a bookmark to this page and you didn't double click the mouse...got it? You are a godsend don't you dare go away. I am in a troublesome state of being right now....I feel like I am running in place and going nowhere and only I can change it. If you know of a way to transplant focus and discipline I'm a wonderful candidate. As you can see I am not always Toots "the wise and all powerful"
Love you lots,
Me!
This is the end of the thread.
Psycho-Babble Social | Extras | FAQ
Dr. Bob is Robert Hsiung, MD,
bob@dr-bob.org
Script revised: February 4, 2008
URL: http://www.dr-bob.org/cgi-bin/pb/mget.pl
Copyright 2006-17 Robert Hsiung.
Owned and operated by Dr. Bob LLC and not the University of Chicago.