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Posted by PuraVida on February 9, 2003, at 19:39:09
Hi all,
I have been posting here the past few years, and the board has helped me greatly when it comes to finding about other peoples experiences. However, I just haven't seen a lot of conversation on if people are having problems with self-medication (alcohol, particularly), and am hoping to start a discussion. So here is my deal - I'd love to hear from anyone with similar challenges.
I have been drinking since I was a late teen, and it has always been a fairly large part of my life in the sense that I am (or was) very social. I may be a little paranoid about how much of a problem I have, as my mother was a psych/drug counselor and worried about my working in a bar in college leading to alcoholism. On the other hand, I do seem to get into relationships with guys where drinking is a big deal. On the other hand, I have left those guys primarily because I got sick of hangovers and was moderating and they were not.
Regardless of whether I fit into a category of alcoholic or not, I understand that the drinking is not good for me as a depression-prone person, and that of late I am definately using it to numb my pain. I have also just started added Prozac again, for the third time. I noticed the two times I took it before, and one of the reasons I chose to stop it, was because after a drink or two it is as if someone has taken all of my control away. I still function physically pretty well, and I suppose still make sense, but it is as if I get immediately drunk and careless. I have had some embarrasing evenings lately. I also muct wonder if the anhedonia I've had lately is a result of the daily heavy drinking of the past month or so.
I don't want to go to AA because I know thier ideology is very strict, religious, and to be sucessful, you must submit and conform to thier ways. I'm a little more individualist in my thinking, so I am checking out moderation.org and womenforsobriety.org.
My goal is to abstain for 30 days (as moderation.org suggests.) I am hoping by then my mood and meds will be under control and I can go back to having a glass of wine or two with my friends, but I don't know. I'd love to say "I never want to be blind drunk again" but then I think of that feeling I get when the wine is being poured, and it is so tempting to just to not take responsibility, especially when everyone else is doing the same. Then I remember that I am not the same as they are - they don't have the mood swings I do. And, I see, that I am using it as an escape. I am working on some tactics to help me at least stick to the 30 days...
Thanks for reading my post, and thanks in advance for any comments...
PV
Posted by PuraVida on February 10, 2003, at 21:38:45
In reply to Dual Diagnosis anyone? (long), posted by PuraVida on February 9, 2003, at 19:39:09
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