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Posted by Partlycloudy on November 16, 2008, at 12:45:37
This morning my husband asked me when I was going to get around to putting more items on our store's website, and I completely broke down. I'm not up to to simplest of tasks. I can barely get through the days. I just this morning started at my very low end therapeutic dose of Zoloft, and I feel shell shocked. Appropriately. I time my Xanax doses exactly so that my last one is taken right when I crawl into bed so I have a chance at getting to sleep - so far that is working, along with the Ambien CR. Haven't really seen much improvement with the headaches. Yoga IS helping my back, but even there I'm crying, which embarrasses me.
But I'm just hanging on by the barest of threads. I'm scared stiff by the economic outlook - I don't have a job to try to hold on to, my my mind is racing, how on earth could I get one if I needed to? I'm such a mess.
Husband finally saw me drop my brave front - crying in front of him, which I rarely do. He brought me kleenex and said that we were devoting this day to the sofa. Bless his heart.
I'm scared of just about everything right now. Having a bad day. Think I might go back to bed.
Posted by Dinah on November 16, 2008, at 12:57:04
In reply to I just can't do it today, posted by Partlycloudy on November 16, 2008, at 12:45:37
Posted by Phillipa on November 16, 2008, at 13:01:30
In reply to I just can't do it today, posted by Partlycloudy on November 16, 2008, at 12:45:37
Believe it or not feel like you do didn't know you had switched to zoloft irrelevant. The economy has most of us. Sales on ebay will be nil after holidays looking for a big box and may seek warmer climates. How can I say hang in there when the thread is not strong? But try. I'm actually knowing and feeling what your're going through cept all my husband does is yell at me as if it's my fault. Bed late and up late. Love Phillipa Can you walk?
Posted by Phillipa on November 16, 2008, at 13:02:37
In reply to Re: I just can't do it today » Partlycloudy, posted by Phillipa on November 16, 2008, at 13:01:30
Meaning go for a walk to try and clear your head. Other didn't come out right. Love Phillipa
Posted by fyrefly on November 16, 2008, at 13:24:08
In reply to Re: I just can't do it today » Partlycloudy, posted by Phillipa on November 16, 2008, at 13:01:30
I am new here but I'd just like to say I understand feeling stuck and unable to stop crying or being able to get off the couch, so to speak. My anxiety becomes paralyzing at times. My spouse becomes impatient and often angry when I cannot follow through with the day to day tasks.
Be gentle with yourself. Focus on your breathing.
Take care.
Posted by rskontos on November 16, 2008, at 15:16:22
In reply to I just can't do it today, posted by Partlycloudy on November 16, 2008, at 12:45:37
PC,
I am so glad you finally let your husband see how bad it was for you and he responded so well.
I understand the need of a sofa. Take all the time you need, don't push, don't try to understand the whys and hows of where you are, I believe in time you will feel a small lift of this deep despair you are feeling.
I hope you find some solace in that so many of us can relate to your feelings. As for the economy, don't worry about that, you did not create the mess and it will go back up. What goes down must come up. We are about at bottom.
I think you feel you are at the bottom, so I think you will see a clearing of your very cloudy skies soon.
Who was suppose to open Camp Comfort? You really need a bunk there don't you?
I so relate to your feelings. I know they will pass but I know that hardly makes you feel better.
If I could, I would massage your neck and shoulders to help with that headache. So maybe a cyberassage would help?
^^^^^^^^^PartlyCloudy^^^^^^^^^^^ (this is your cyberassage.:)
I do hope you feel some relief soon.
rsk
Posted by seldomseen on November 16, 2008, at 21:41:41
In reply to I just can't do it today, posted by Partlycloudy on November 16, 2008, at 12:45:37
It's okay. You don't have to do it everyday. Some days you get to just not.
What you are doing is very very hard. I used to feel as though life was getting in the way of my recovery instead of recovery getting in the way of my life.
But in the end, once you're all cried out and spent, you will rise from this.
It just takes time.
Seldom
ps, I actually had to abort Xanax early in my course because of depression. I switched to klonopin and found it much smoother. Worked like a charm on the anxiety.
Posted by Partlycloudy on November 17, 2008, at 10:59:26
In reply to Re: I just can't do it today, posted by Phillipa on November 16, 2008, at 13:02:37
I switched from Prozac to Zoloft for the PTSD symptoms - am on a low therapeutic dosage. I'm feeling the loss of the Prozac as an increase in depression, I think. Too soon to tell whether the Zoloft is helping (just one day at the dose; I'm just getting an upset stomach so far).
Walking is NOT on the cards. My bed and fluffy covers beckons. Today, at least, I got out to an appointment, so I showered and dressed.
pc
Posted by Partlycloudy on November 17, 2008, at 11:01:44
In reply to Re: I just can't do it today, posted by fyrefly on November 16, 2008, at 13:24:08
Nice to meet you, whatever the circumstances. I've been trying to be conscious of my breathing, though not controlling of it - that seems to send me right into a panic attack as I sense that I'm not able to slow it down. But just the act of noticing that I'm holding my breath, or not able to take a full deep breath into my belly, helps to get me right in touch with the anxiety that my body is holding.
pc
Posted by Partlycloudy on November 17, 2008, at 11:02:12
In reply to ((((Partlycloudy)))) (nm), posted by Dinah on November 16, 2008, at 12:57:04
Posted by Partlycloudy on November 17, 2008, at 11:03:45
In reply to Re: I just can't do it today, posted by rskontos on November 16, 2008, at 15:16:22
I would dearly love a cyberssage for my neck and shoulders - thank you, sweetie.
My husband really is a treasure.
pc
Posted by Partlycloudy on November 17, 2008, at 11:07:33
In reply to Re: I just can't do it today » Partlycloudy, posted by seldomseen on November 16, 2008, at 21:41:41
I don't think I'm on a big enough dose of Xanax to be making an impact of my depression (total is 1.5 mg/day now). I think, instead, I'm feeling the withdrawal of the Prozac, which I had to do in order to add the Zoloft, and which effects I haven't yet the full "benefits" of yet. Still in this twilight hell of medication adjustment.
Today is not as bad as yesterday. Trying to take this one day at a time, the only way I know how. I got through yesterday. Cups of tea, kitty lap therapy and a soaking bath all helped.
thank you
pc
Posted by fyrefly on November 17, 2008, at 17:25:01
In reply to Re: I just can't do it today » fyrefly, posted by Partlycloudy on November 17, 2008, at 11:01:44
Thanks for the welcome,PC.
I usually find that I am holding my breath or breathing so shallowly that it seems imperceptible.
I have really been focusing on breath work in the last several weeks to slow down the racing thoughts that accompany my anxiety attacks.
I am glad to hear your husband is so supportive.
Fyrefly
Posted by Phillipa on November 17, 2008, at 19:30:15
In reply to Re: I just can't do it today » Phillipa, posted by Partlycloudy on November 17, 2008, at 10:59:26
PC that is progress. But I thought prozac and zoloft were both good for PTSD? Although they did put my Son on zoloft 200mg for a short period of time. Now an occasional ativan. Philllipa
Posted by rskontos on November 18, 2008, at 18:18:59
In reply to Re: I just can't do it today » rskontos, posted by Partlycloudy on November 17, 2008, at 11:03:45
Yes he is a sweetie!
I hope you are feeling better.
rsk
Posted by Kath on November 20, 2008, at 13:53:16
In reply to Re: I just can't do it today » seldomseen, posted by Partlycloudy on November 17, 2008, at 11:07:33
> Today is not as bad as yesterday. Trying to take this one day at a time, the only way I know how. I got through yesterday. Cups of tea, kitty lap therapy and a soaking bath all helped.
>
> thank you
> pc~ ~ ~ ((((((((((((((((((you)))))))))))))))))))))
Oh I wish I were close enough to be with you. One day at a time - or even one minute at a time if necessary. I hope your kitty is a purrer!! For me purrs are one of the most wonderful sounds in the whole wide world.
I send love & comforting thoughts PC,
love, Kath
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