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Posted by Dory on October 24, 2007, at 10:51:42
guys... gals... i need help. all that you can give. i am about to go through one of the toughest experiences of my life and i need help... i need help staying grounded and having people to talk to... about this, about anything really.. i need to have someone to keep me company sometimes, distract me sometimes... and let me just be sad too.
this is so hard and i don't know if i can do it ... i need courage and i don't have much.
i'm not especially religious, but if i were i would pray for courage. Maybe my lung ta will draw some courageous energy my way for me.
Posted by B2chica on October 24, 2007, at 12:33:43
In reply to need help, posted by Dory on October 24, 2007, at 10:51:42
(((<<<(((((((DORY))))>>>))))
here's some Extra Special Cyber-Hugs!and dory, this experience that you are going to deal with may be scary and emotional arduous, but remember what you have Already been through AND SURVIVED!
you are stronger than you know.
and we are 100% here for you!you are such a smart one too, just knowing you may need some grounding and preparing for that is Wonderful!
YOU CAN DO THIS!
remember we're just a type-click away.and whether you are religious or not prayer/meditation can be Very soothing.
we're here!
Nope, not going anywhere!
yep...still here....Smile....you are a beautiful, Strong, Independant, fierce woman! whether you believe it or not, i do..and soon you will see her too.
b2c.
Posted by happyflower on October 24, 2007, at 12:45:00
In reply to Re: need help, posted by B2chica on October 24, 2007, at 12:33:43
(((((((((((dory)))))))))))))))))
Don't know the details, but I know what pain is.
You can get through this, you are a survior and one tough cookie. Life really sucks sometimes, I know.But you don't suck, so that is why we need people like you in the world to help us fight against all the evil people.
Posted by rskontos on October 24, 2007, at 12:49:17
In reply to need help, posted by Dory on October 24, 2007, at 10:51:42
((((((((((courage))))))))), Dory here is a dose of courage coming your way. dory you are already one of the most grounded I know. You can do it. I know you can. We are all here to help. If you want to chat let us know. Sorry I wasn't around when you wanted to chat yesterday. I will try to be lurking to see if you need to chat or need to post.
But you can do anything you set your mind too because like B2C says you are fierce, strong independent woman. We are here to support you!!! take care....be strong...........rk
Posted by Dinah on October 24, 2007, at 13:59:12
In reply to need help, posted by Dory on October 24, 2007, at 10:51:42
I have limited time right now, because of work. But my thoughts and any positive energy I have are with you.
Posted by llurpsienoodle on October 24, 2007, at 15:25:59
In reply to Re: need help » Dory, posted by Dinah on October 24, 2007, at 13:59:12
sometimes the hardest thing to do is to ASK for help. you've already done that, and I'm really impressed.
I'm gonna be busy today, but maybe this evening I will be back in time for chitchat around 9-10 est.
Sorry I missed you last night.
((((lungs))))
(((((((((((*Dory*)))))))))))
Posted by Dory on October 24, 2007, at 18:23:02
In reply to Re: need help, posted by llurpsienoodle on October 24, 2007, at 15:25:59
thanks ((((helpers))))
there is no set time frame, it's going to happen over a period of time.. it's building now and will basically explode soon... but no idea exactly when. No worries about not being here or there at specific times... it's going to be a longer haul than one day.
it's already starting i guess.. binge eating/no eating... too nervous to eat, or eating for comfort.. got into a skirmish with some *ssh*l* on my way home because my patience is about zero. i am very quiet when like this.. and will avoid people altogether generally.. but if i am provoked i am not something you want to be dealing with.. it's a case of getting more than you bargain for.
no worries for you guys ... i have an out.. i can easily walk away.. i'm not cornered. But my apologies ahead of time if i am not as kind as possible.
i'm already cutting myself off from people as much as i can... because i cannot process or interact and it isn't safe for them either. i will hurt people.. i don't mean to or want to.
i did really crappy at my midterm review today. i just stammered and was poorly prepared.
my body feels like i weigh 1000lbs.. so heavy. can't tolerate stimulus.
stormy outside. stormy inside.
i know what is coming for me... i know that fear so well that i am afraid of the fear itself. i know all about the weeks of massive panic attack after panic attack, the nausea, inability to eat, total somatic panic... i know all about the day after day of inability to think or function, the inability to do much else other than sleep. The nightmares. The aloneness. The horrible crushing fear.
so right now i am a lot like the dogs in the "learned helplessness" experiements. Look them up if you don't know about them. i am just laying there.. waiting for the pain with quiet despair, knowing it's coming and i can't get away.
in fact... to get away would almost be worse. Maybe those dogs secretly hoped for euthanasia
Posted by Dory on October 24, 2007, at 22:06:47
In reply to need help, posted by Dory on October 24, 2007, at 10:51:42
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