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Posted by muffled on July 7, 2006, at 22:28:29
Am I the only one?
I have so much disgust and hatred and fear and sadness and self destructiveness inside of me.
WHY?????????????
Its so strong and I can't make it go away. So I figger I'll have to live with it.
But its hard, cuz its chewing away my insides.
And sometimes it'll pop up so strong it scares me and confuses me.
I wish it would go away.
Whatever it is.
Just go away.
And stop popping up and surprizing me in a bad way.
I want it to go away so bad.
Does anybody know how to make it go away???
:-(
??????????????
Posted by sleepygirl on July 7, 2006, at 23:39:26
In reply to WHY????????????, posted by muffled on July 7, 2006, at 22:28:29
'cause sometimes we learn how to be afraid more than we learn other things that would help us live well??
..because we learn to expect the worst?
not being alone is one of the most important things though I think, so people can care about you even when/if you think they shouldn't and then hopefully it becomes easier to live in your own skin??
...if this makes any sense
I usually have more questions than answers though ;-)
...big questions mufflesalways wishing good things for you,
sg
Posted by muffled on July 8, 2006, at 0:00:15
In reply to Re: WHY???????????? » muffled, posted by sleepygirl on July 7, 2006, at 23:39:26
Thanks SG, I wish for goodstuff for U too :-)
Yeah, too many questions.
They clog my mind sometimes.
Take care SG.
Muffled
Posted by fallsfall on July 8, 2006, at 8:00:30
In reply to WHY????????????, posted by muffled on July 7, 2006, at 22:28:29
Yes, Muffled, it can go away. I am building a new life. It is so different from my old life. It is hard to learn to do things a different way, but it IS possible. It is possible to see yourself differently and choose a new path to follow. But I won't tell you that it is easy. It is hard, painful work. But you can do this work. You can change your life. I see you working so hard, I know that you will succeed.
And your new life will be worth all of this effort.
Love,
Falls
Posted by ElaineM on July 8, 2006, at 17:01:50
In reply to Re: WHY????????????, posted by fallsfall on July 8, 2006, at 8:00:30
Muff, you sound so dejected. I hate that question "Why?". I ask it all the time too. Why did this happen, why me, why now, why am I so messed up?
Another phrase that is so hard to take is the "live with it" one. I understand how sad it can make you feel. The only thing I do when I get really low, hating who and how and what I am, is try to not hurt myself, on top of all the other uncontrollable stuff hurting me. And I try to think of others I've heard of who have changed, or others who are worse off than me. And then I wait. And hope. And keep trying. (And I spend time writing, either here, or in my journal, or to my T)
Do your lows come in cycles, or are they situational, or just come from out of the blue?
Thinking of (((((you))))).
EL
Posted by TherapyGirl on July 8, 2006, at 17:40:58
In reply to WHY????????????, posted by muffled on July 7, 2006, at 22:28:29
((((((((Muffy))))))))))
Wish I knew how to make it go away. I don't feel disgust or hatred towards you and I think my fellow Babblers would agree. Can you try to hold onto that?
Posted by milly on July 10, 2006, at 13:07:46
In reply to WHY????????????, posted by muffled on July 7, 2006, at 22:28:29
Oh Muffy, you sound so resiegned - is there nothing that chases it away? You so deserve so much better, if only muffy could love muffy as much as the rest of us.
Milly
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