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Posted by happyflower on November 22, 2005, at 3:59:07
I haven't been able to sleep well the last couple of nights, which makes it hard to get up with so little sleep. Plus who likes getting up when it is dark outside.
My orthodics are preventing me from doing my normal exercise routine.
Plus my trumpet has been in the shop for a week now, so I can't play either to get rid of my stress. No bad rehearsals until January.Christmas shopping is almost here, and we are short on money this year, so spending money when you don't have it, is not fun to me.
Plus in January it will be a year of therapy. I can't believe I have been in it so long. I can't believe I get my life on track, then I get hammered with marriage problems.
I guess I just feel down on everything, pity, pity. Therapy has helped me happier than I have ever been , but yet I am so sad to be losing my marriage, there is nothing I can do to make my DH want me. I hate this feeling and what my marriage is doing to our kids.
My T thinks I am doing really well, then why do I feel like I stubble and fall into a pit somedays? Maybe it is hormones talking right now, I guess I am seeing the cycle of this. Yuck!
I guess I shouldn't complain, others have more worse things to complain about, maybe I shouldn't feel so bad. I just want to cry though. So sad today. :(.
Posted by allisonross on November 22, 2005, at 9:09:06
In reply to Just not feeling good, posted by happyflower on November 22, 2005, at 3:59:07
Posted by muffled on November 22, 2005, at 11:18:28
In reply to Just not feeling good, posted by happyflower on November 22, 2005, at 3:59:07
Posted by happyflower on November 22, 2005, at 17:51:05
In reply to Just not feeling good, posted by happyflower on November 22, 2005, at 3:59:07
I feel a little bit better today, I got out and played with a quartet and of course talked to people. Plus I saw my T for the first time in almost 3 weeks at the gym, that helps too. Thanks for caring about me. I guess I sounded a little pitiful.
Posted by Tamar on November 22, 2005, at 18:47:17
In reply to I think I get like this like a cycle, ally and muf, posted by happyflower on November 22, 2005, at 17:51:05
(((((Happyflower)))))
Can you see your T a bit more often? I wonder if the marriage problems are getting you down so much that you need your T more often... Maybe once a month isn't enough at the moment. It occurs to me that feeling unwanted in your marriage isn't so far away from some of the childhood feelings you’ve worked on before... and maybe you need a bit more support than you're getting.
Glad you saw him at the gym. That's always good, eh? But maybe you need more than gym-contact.
I'm a little in awe of you, to be honest, especially in view of how well you've been coping with your marital difficulties. I suspect that if I were in your shoes I'd have done something socially unacceptable by now. I'm really impressed by how you're handling it. Your strength of character does you credit. But don't be shy about asking for more help if you need it, because that's a strength in itself.
Tamar
Posted by happyflower on November 22, 2005, at 19:21:14
In reply to Re: I think I get like this like a cycle, ally and muf » happyflower, posted by Tamar on November 22, 2005, at 18:47:17
> (((((Happyflower)))))
Thanks for the hugs, I need hugs and milk and cookies. :)
> Can you see your T a bit more often? I wonder if the marriage problems are getting you down so much that you need your T more often... Maybe once a month isn't enough at the moment.
This thought has also occured to me too, I know if I need more time, my T will allow it. We haven't officailly talked about termination, we just started to space out my appointments since other than my mariage I am doing good. But some days my marriage is enough to really bring me down and make me sad, having hormones fluxations, makes things even worse. I am starting to see the cycle of it. I have PMPD, the worse kinda of PMS, I take Sarafem(prozac) every 2 weeks but maybe I need the next strenght up. My GP told me that I might need stronger doses as my body adjust to it.
It occurs to me that feeling unwanted in your marriage isn't so far away from some of the childhood feelings you’ve worked on before... and maybe you need a bit more support than you're getting.
Yes, this is exactly what I told my T a couple of sessions ago. Feeling unwanted, unloved, and that I don't matter, is EXACTLY what it felt like growing up. It is just so hard to see my DH like my mom. I remember the look my T gave me when I said what my DH is doing feels like what it did when I was child. He seemed really worried about me when I said that. I guess I need to talk about it more. The sameness is errie to me. really scary, so sad.
> Glad you saw him at the gym. That's always good, eh? But maybe you need more than gym-contact.
Yes, I guess going every 2 weeks to every 4 weeks was a big jump, I think. I wonder if my T will bring this up since I called him last week to just check in, which I have never done. Then when he asked if hearing his voice makes me feel better, I said yes, maybe he is seeing me struggle with needing him but yet wanting to be okay. I don't think I am as okay, as he thinks. With the holidays coming up, the death of my dad, and all the family sh*t, and stress, maybe I should see him more often during this time. It is so hard to do the traditional family stuff with my kids and DH, when it is so hard to even be in the same room for more than hour without fighting.> I'm a little in awe of you, to be honest, especially in view of how well you've been coping with your marital difficulties.
Thanks, my T said the exact thing, sometimes I wonder if you really my T discuised as Tamar.
I suspect that if I were in your shoes I'd have done something socially unacceptable by now.
Believe me I have thought about it a lot, but I am behaving myself this week so far. How long can a women go who is in her sexual peak go without having a man make love to her ? I am going freaking nuts!
I'm really impressed by how you're handling it. Your strength of character does you credit. But don't be shy about asking for more help if you need it, because that's a strength in itself.
Thanks for reminding me of that, maybe I need to reach out more. I hate it though, because it feels like I am regressing. Thanks Tamar, you just seem to know me and understand me (which is not easy task, LOL) Thank you so much. (((((Tamar))))
Posted by allisonross on November 25, 2005, at 7:04:55
In reply to Re: I think I get like this like a cycle, ally and muf » happyflower, posted by Tamar on November 22, 2005, at 18:47:17
Dear Tamar: ((((Tamar))): I think you are so adorable and such a sweetie. Before I joined babble, I was reading your posts from years ago, and thought you were wonderful.
I am not sure if that post was to me too (I think it was, cause you had my name on it)
Talk about wanting to do something "socially unacceptable!" You have no idea how much I want to do that (with my t), LOL, LOL
Divorced after 31 years of abuse and trying to heal. I've never been comfortable asking for help, or saying anything. I am always more comfortable in the helping mode (being that I counsel abused women).
Hugs, n Love, Ally
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