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Posted by FlyingKangaroo on August 15, 2005, at 13:54:49
I have an appointment with my T in about an hour and i am a nervous wreck about it. I think i will be telling him that i'm not going to go ahead with therapy and meds. but put it all back where it came from so that i can continue to function. I want to just drink it all away again cause i cant afford to have a breakdown. I cant seem to drag myself to work anymore which will put my in financial crisis soon. Am i just being selfish and weak or am i falling into deeper depression? O boy... I use to be indecisive but now I' not so sure.
Posted by Sonya on August 15, 2005, at 14:26:51
In reply to nervous, posted by FlyingKangaroo on August 15, 2005, at 13:54:49
I used to get nervous before every session with my T so that's not unusual. Therapy is difficult. It's tough to face issues that make us vulnerable to our emotions. But if you're self-medicating by drinking so you don't have to deal with your emotions, you'll never get better. Why don't you give therapy a chance? It's possible you may feel worse before you feel better as you're unearthing deep-seated pain, but wouldn't it be great to get that all behind you? And if therapy doesn't help alone, then you may want to consider meds.
I hope things work out for you.
Peace...Sonya
> I have an appointment with my T in about an hour and i am a nervous wreck about it. I think i will be telling him that i'm not going to go ahead with therapy and meds. but put it all back where it came from so that i can continue to function. I want to just drink it all away again cause i cant afford to have a breakdown. I cant seem to drag myself to work anymore which will put my in financial crisis soon. Am i just being selfish and weak or am i falling into deeper depression? O boy... I use to be indecisive but now I' not so sure.
Posted by FlyingKangaroo on August 15, 2005, at 14:36:21
In reply to Re: nervous » FlyingKangaroo, posted by Sonya on August 15, 2005, at 14:26:51
Thanks Sonya, I have about 30 mins till therapy and Im just making myself sick about it right now (this is my 9th session) havent had this problem before. Taking wellbutrin now and just quit paxil 2 days ago. Oh well i still want a puppy. :)
Posted by cricket on August 15, 2005, at 14:53:29
In reply to nervous, posted by FlyingKangaroo on August 15, 2005, at 13:54:49
I certainly know what you mean. I am a nervous wreck before each and every session and I've had hundreds of sessions. I can't eat, I can't concentrate, my legs start to get weak, my breathing gets shallow, I feel nauseous and dizzy.
My heart pounds so badly I am surprised he can't see it through my shirt. In fact, actually I think that he can, because he looks toward my chest and says "you're feeling terrified again."
"Yes, always," I say. But then he lets me be quiet for a while and I stare at a picture on his wall and slowly I calm down a bit.
So, I wish I could say it gets better, but for me it definitely hasn't.
Posted by madeline on August 15, 2005, at 17:34:26
In reply to nervous, posted by FlyingKangaroo on August 15, 2005, at 13:54:49
I get really nervous sometimes before sessions too. I've even gone to a bar and had a drink (okay a shot of whiskey) before several of them.
It was very counterproductive and wasteful of me.
When therapy gets hard it is usually because you are entering into some murky, difficult stuff that needs to come out.
Remember to respect yourself and your pain and have some compassion for yourself.
It took me the longest time to realize that it is okay to feel like crap. I just had to relax into it.
(((flying kangaroo)))
Posted by Shortelise on August 18, 2005, at 1:01:50
In reply to nervous, posted by FlyingKangaroo on August 15, 2005, at 13:54:49
After 7 years, I still get really anxious before appts sometimes.
Could you tell this T you are afraid of having a breakdown and that you feel therapy might provoke it? Maybe that's a dumb question, but he's the one who should be helping you keep it together, right?
Take care.
ShortE
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