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Posted by Poet on July 23, 2005, at 2:09:09
Damn, she's good. She got me pegged. At one point she look straight at me and said *you don't trust anyone.*
She kept saying *we can work on that.* I'm not sure how we will do that in meds management follow ups, but she really seemed confident.
She's really into slowing down my negative thought pattern. Though I am not sure I want to take *just a little bit of an antipsychotic.* She wrote it down (Ambilify) and said I should think about it. Research it. Which of course, I will on the meds board.
I am increasing the Effexor. I have a follow up appointment next month. I have not told my T, yet, but I will.
Pdoc, wants me to try for one minute a day not to grab onto my negative thoughts. Work my way up to 30 minutes a day. She also asked if I would bring her something I've written. I told her that I've barely let T read anything in three years. That's when she said that I don't trust anyone. As I said, she pegged me.
Poet
Posted by rabidreader on July 23, 2005, at 12:06:24
In reply to New Pdoc Update, posted by Poet on July 23, 2005, at 2:09:09
It's so d*** hard to trust. It takes me a year or more before I start thinking, "Maybe this person is okay." For it to take more doesn't seem strange to me.
Wish I had your pdoc! She sounds amazing! Like having a second T!
Posted by Shortelise on July 23, 2005, at 13:55:48
In reply to New Pdoc Update, posted by Poet on July 23, 2005, at 2:09:09
It sounds like this pdoc really cares, Poet.
I hope you can trust yourself - that's what the problem is, isn't it?
What a waste not to. There is such ... beauty.
ShortE, who has a migraine
Posted by fallsfall on July 23, 2005, at 15:30:23
In reply to New Pdoc Update, posted by Poet on July 23, 2005, at 2:09:09
I'm really glad to hear this, Poet! I hope she can be really helpful for you.
Posted by Dinah on July 23, 2005, at 15:35:20
In reply to New Pdoc Update, posted by Poet on July 23, 2005, at 2:09:09
Poet, it sounds like a really promising pdoc. Mine has been nothing but just the side-effects ma'am since we started. :)
Do you have positive feelings about the whole thing?
Posted by partlycloudy on July 24, 2005, at 7:46:57
In reply to New Pdoc Update, posted by Poet on July 23, 2005, at 2:09:09
Wow. She sounds like the soul mate of *my* p-doc, whom I trust utterly by now.
It's spooky and cool at the same time.
Good luck,
partlycloudy
Posted by gardenergirl on July 24, 2005, at 12:45:04
In reply to Re: New Pdoc Update » Poet, posted by partlycloudy on July 24, 2005, at 7:46:57
Sounds like it went really well, Poet. How did you feel after leaving?
I'm glad you made this decision. When will you tell your T?
gg
Posted by AuntieMel on July 25, 2005, at 12:04:33
In reply to New Pdoc Update, posted by Poet on July 23, 2005, at 2:09:09
Wonderful news.
You shouldn't be too worried about telling your therapist. My med guy recommended my therapist and they know each other (professionally) but the two of them *never* talk.
I usually tell my therapist what is going on with the meds, but it doesn't go the other direction.
I think - at least for myself - the meds are importantant because they get me to a point the therapy is useful. Without them I'd go to therapy and stare at the wall.
From my favorite med site http://www.crazymeds.org
Abilify (aripiprazole). Currently the newest of all the atypicals. Abilify has moderate-to-high affinity for a variety of dopamine, as well as serotonin and histamine receptors, thus is well known to be activating, rather than sedating, especially with the bipolar. However that hasn't stopped Bristol-Myers-Squibb from submitting Abilify to the FDA as a treatment for mania.
it sounds like something *I* could use.
Posted by Poet on July 25, 2005, at 18:38:18
In reply to Re: New Pdoc Update, posted by rabidreader on July 23, 2005, at 12:06:24
Hi Rabidreader,
I can barely handle one T. Maybe trust is something else new pdoc will work on. Though I still can't figure out how she/we can talk about much more than meds in 20 minutes a month or every three months. It will be interesting.
Poet
Posted by Poet on July 25, 2005, at 18:42:22
In reply to Re: New Pdoc Update » Poet, posted by Shortelise on July 23, 2005, at 13:55:48
Hi ShortE,
I don't trust myself. Especially decisions. I never remember the positive ones, just the negative ones.
I hope your migraine is gone and they stay away.
Poet
Posted by Poet on July 25, 2005, at 18:45:28
In reply to Re: New Pdoc Update » Poet, posted by fallsfall on July 23, 2005, at 15:30:23
Hi Falls,
She probably will be helpful, assuming I allow myself to be helped. She really does seem to understand the negative thought process, though antipsychotic meds even in a small dose is kind of scary for plain ol' dysthymic, bulimic, social anxiety ridden me.
Poet
Posted by Poet on July 25, 2005, at 18:48:50
In reply to Re: New Pdoc Update » Poet, posted by Dinah on July 23, 2005, at 15:35:20
Hi Dinah,
I do feel pretty positive about seeing her. She didn't push the new med, just suggested it and that I research it. Think about it. I liked that- its wasn't you have to take this.
Ex pdoc wasn't just nothing, but the side effects ma'am, but I know I mad him mad when I decreased the meds against his advice.
Poet
Posted by Poet on July 25, 2005, at 18:51:06
In reply to Re: New Pdoc Update » Poet, posted by partlycloudy on July 24, 2005, at 7:46:57
H PC,
Maybe our pdocs are clones? I don't know if I will ever trust anybody utterly, but I'll push aside some negativity and let in a teeny bit of hope.
Poet
Posted by Poet on July 25, 2005, at 18:58:59
In reply to Re: New Pdoc Update, posted by gardenergirl on July 24, 2005, at 12:45:04
Hi GG,
I felt okay when I left. Part of it is that while she is certified in psychopharmacology (the things you don't find out until you get a business card) she also believes in changing thinking. Not just wiping out the thoughts with chemicals.
I see my T on August 4, and I hope I will tell her then. I'll do a trade out, she tells me about her vacation and I'll tell her what I did.
Poet
Posted by Poet on July 25, 2005, at 19:03:24
In reply to Re: New Pdoc Update » Poet, posted by AuntieMel on July 25, 2005, at 12:04:33
Hi Auntie Mel,
Thanks for the link. It wouldn't hurt to try it and it might help, but my negative thoughts tell me it's useless, I am useless, therapy is useless. I'm lucky if I can avoid grabbing onto those negative thoughts for one second. Damn, that was negative, too.
I understand staring at the wall in therapy. I stare at my feet a lot. If I stare at the wall, I get up and straighten the pictures. My T thinks it's amusing. I think she makes them crooked right before I come in.
Poet
Posted by gardenergirl on July 25, 2005, at 22:22:15
In reply to Re: New Pdoc Update » gardenergirl, posted by Poet on July 25, 2005, at 18:58:59
Sounds like a good plan!
My T is on vacation week after next...or is it next week? D'oh!
Take care,
gg
Posted by daisym on July 28, 2005, at 0:18:57
In reply to New Pdoc Update, posted by Poet on July 23, 2005, at 2:09:09
I've been reading. I'm glad you found someone who sounds so good. I wanted to check in and see if you told your therapist and how that went.
And I wanted to let you know I was thinking about you.
(((Poet)))
Posted by Poet on July 30, 2005, at 13:06:37
In reply to Re: New Pdoc Update » Poet, posted by daisym on July 28, 2005, at 0:18:57
Hi Daisy,
I didn't tell my T, but am going to try to tell her next week. She was on vacation this past week, so she'll probably think I saw new pdoc then (because I missed her or something ;)
I hate the idea of more meds. Wine really seems to do the trick nicely.
Poet
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