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Posted by Tamar on May 2, 2005, at 17:25:37
In reply to Re: Klonopin and nap later » Tamar, posted by Dinah on May 2, 2005, at 16:34:19
> Dang, you're good. Are you a therapist by any chance?
ROFL! No, I couldn’t be a therapist. I’d never be able to handle negative transference; I’d feel deskilled the whole time.
> I think I'll print your posts out to bring to him to add more words to the conversation, which is currently quite frustrating.
Hope it helps.
> We've talked about some of those things before. It's the thing I refer to as the thing I wrote on the yellow post it note (and let him keep to refresh his memory). But he says I talk about it in a very roundabout way that makes it difficult for him to understand.
Well, it’s very difficult to be direct about these things!
> But you did!
Well, just because it sounded like some of the feelings I have about myself. Sometimes I think I’m stuck in an immature stage of sexual development. For example, I can touch myself, but I tend to find it difficult to let my husband touch me: I feel like a kid whose interest in her own body is natural but who would feel violated if touched by someone else. Sometimes I think I’m not ready for sex with a partner, like a pubescent virgin (despite having had children; go figure). It’s almost like one of these body dysmorphic things: it feels as if my sexually adult body doesn’t quite belong to me.
I don’t know if any of that applies to you, but I hope your therapist gets a handle on it pronto!
T.
Posted by TofuEmmy on May 2, 2005, at 17:34:26
In reply to Re: TRIGGER, this is. Perhaps. For some. » Susan47, posted by Dinah on May 2, 2005, at 14:03:01
Dinah - This is actually something I had been thinking about lately. When I was a kid, I received some little booklet about the body changes we girls were about to experience. The booklet spoke of breasts and new hair. That's it. And, as you said - there are other changes. When my... "flower", um...bloomed?...well, I was mortified. I thought somehow it had been damaged and I was permanently deformed.
I don't know if today those little booklets say anything about this change, but they sure as shooting ought to!
And perhaps, if your T has never had a daughter - he is simply not aware of this? Maybe he thinks the stuff grown women have is the same on little girls...just littler? I'll bet a lot of men don't know about this wee secret flowering.
em
Posted by fallsfall on May 2, 2005, at 18:17:43
In reply to Oh my head. SEXUAL TRIGGER or something, posted by Dinah on May 2, 2005, at 12:19:12
This sounds like important stuff, Dinah. Good for you for tackling it.
What would it mean to you if you DID have "that"?
What are the advantages to you of not having that?
What are the disadvantages to you of not having that?
I think that the facts about your anatomy are not particularly important. What is important is how you feel about what you consider to be "normal" female anatomy, and how you feel about your anatomy.
What do you see as the purposes of the female anatomy?
How does what you see as your anatomy differ as far as those purposes go?
If you could magically change your anatomy to be "normal", would you? Why?
Don't give up yet. This is a complex issue for you. It is hard for you to explain and understand and it will be hard for him to understand, too.
Just try to get him to see things more symbolically. I think that is where the issues are. It may take a while to figure out what this all means to you, but based on what I have seen you say about yourself, I think it is important. So don't give up!!!
I'll get my p*m-p*ms if it would help.
Posted by thewrite1 on May 2, 2005, at 18:33:09
In reply to Oh my head. SEXUAL TRIGGER or something, posted by Dinah on May 2, 2005, at 12:19:12
I wanted to reply to this earlier and I got sidetracked with a 14-month-old.
That said, it's my opinion that you should keep trying to get this across to your T or if you just don't think that's possible, find a sex therapist. Maybe it would be easier to say over the phone so his eyes aren't on you? That's easier for me sometimes.
In any case, I hope you can find a way to communicate this to someone. It seems to be really important to you. Good luck.
Posted by Dinah on May 2, 2005, at 18:35:08
In reply to Re: Oh my head. SEXUAL TRIGGER or something » Dinah, posted by fallsfall on May 2, 2005, at 18:17:43
I've printed out a bunch of posts. Maybe they can help us find the words together.
And Falls, I think you're right. I think this may be a core issue.
Trouble is that I don't want to "fix" it if fixing it means believing I have normal woman anatomy. I don't think I could bear that.
But I would like him to understand. I'd like it not to be such a powerful secret.
Posted by fallsfall on May 2, 2005, at 21:28:10
In reply to Y'all are great at making me feel less weird., posted by Dinah on May 2, 2005, at 18:35:08
Perhaps you can resolve the issue that makes having normal woman anatomy unbearable. I know it is hard to imagine feeling that way, but if you *could* feel accepting of whatever anatomy you have, I think that a lot of your internal conflict would lessen.
I am working on a deep internal conflict right now, too. I see the symptoms, and we've talked about the symptoms for maybe 6(?) sessions. I want him to just tell me what to do, but that isn't the issue. We need to figure out why I feel the way I do, and why it is such a conflict for me. Somehow saying "the rest of the world gets along just fine with this conflict so you should, too" doesn't help at all. For ME this conflict is very important, so *I* have to figure out how to resolve this *for me*. No, I have no idea how we go about doing this. If I figure that out, I'll let you know. All I know is that resolving the issue that I'm living right now is not the point. The point is that there is an internal conflict that I need to resolve.
You have one, too.
(((Dinah)))
Posted by Shortelise on May 2, 2005, at 23:21:14
In reply to Oh my head. SEXUAL TRIGGER or something, posted by Dinah on May 2, 2005, at 12:19:12
Dinah, I've been working the past two days, not at home today, so I'm just seeing your post now.
What strikes me is that no matter what your genitalia looks like, it's yours. There are lots of different versions. If you've seen a gynecologist, and you have some kind of "abnormality", give him/her a call and have him send your T a letter. Chances are they'll have a common parlance.
Those words, labia major and minor, clitoris, etc. make me uncomfortable, too. I feel ... embarrassed by them. They are words for private parts of me. I want to keep those parts private, I don't want to talk about them. I used to think they were nice to look at - my own,that is, but now I think they aren't.
Ok, this is humour: you could go out and get a porno mag, cut out a photo of a woman's crotch,, label the parts A, B, C, etc. and use it as a guide for him! LOL
Sorry, I am silly-tired.
I think your T really does want to understand.
(((Dinah)))
Posted by gardenergirl on May 3, 2005, at 1:30:48
In reply to Oh my head. SEXUAL TRIGGER or something, posted by Dinah on May 2, 2005, at 12:19:12
Dinah,
Hopefully he will be able to move from reality testing and getting caught up in the possible physical implications of what you are trying to say. The questions others have posted seem much better geared towards helping you talk about, and they seem to be closer to what your issue is, I assume.I hope you can help him get there to help you.
You are very brave.
gg
Posted by Dinah on May 3, 2005, at 8:05:55
In reply to Re: Oh my head. SEXUAL TRIGGER or something » Dinah, posted by Shortelise on May 2, 2005, at 23:21:14
It's nothing a gynecologist would be interested in, except as a way to help my therapist in reality testing me.
I can't look at those pictures. I'm reasonably sure that what I see isn't what's there. Since it would be anatomically impossible.
What I see more closely resembles a sea monster from an old Grade B moster film. I'm afraid of being sucked in and get all dizzy.
And in general I have no problem with porn. I'm just liberal with the use of the fast forward button.
Incidentally I hope Dr. Bob doesn't find this uncivil. I'm obviously not saying that any females on this board resemble a sea monster...
Posted by Dinah on May 3, 2005, at 8:08:02
In reply to Re: Oh my head. SEXUAL TRIGGER or something, posted by gardenergirl on May 3, 2005, at 1:30:48
I hope he gravitates away from the physical into the symbolic.
I just need him to understand the anatomical differences so he doesn't get hung up on that. I wonder if there's any way he can brush up on his anatomy without getting arrested.
Posted by crushedout on May 3, 2005, at 9:51:29
In reply to Re: Oh my head. SEXUAL TRIGGER or something » Shortelise, posted by Dinah on May 3, 2005, at 8:05:55
Posted by Shortelise on May 3, 2005, at 11:23:01
In reply to Re: Oh my head. SEXUAL TRIGGER or something » Shortelise, posted by Dinah on May 3, 2005, at 8:05:55
I am really sorry Dinah. I hope I didn't hurt you with my ill-aimed sense of humour.
((dinah))
ShortE
Posted by Dinah on May 3, 2005, at 12:07:24
In reply to Re: Oh my head. SEXUAL TRIGGER or something » Dinah, posted by Shortelise on May 3, 2005, at 11:23:01
Posted by Dinah on May 3, 2005, at 12:11:56
In reply to No. :) Not at all. (nm) » Shortelise, posted by Dinah on May 3, 2005, at 12:07:24
He says that when I called him yesterday and suggested he brush up on his anatomy, he confessed that his thought was the same as mine. It would be hard to do without getting arrested.
He's never had a young daughter, never changed diapers or watched one grow up. And when he told me what he knew about the differences, it was clear that he didn't know about the differences.
We did agree that if things got stuck, we'd seek out a female sex therapist who practices in our area and see if she's willing to give a couple of consultation sessions.
But he found your posts immensely helpful in understanding that there really were differences, and at least some of the psychological impact of the differences.
Tamar, your paragraph on body dysmorphic disorder regarding sexuality was especially helpful.
So he thanks you and I thank you.
I know it's not an easy topic to discuss.
Posted by Dinah on May 4, 2005, at 0:04:14
In reply to My therapist sends his thanks. - To all, posted by Dinah on May 3, 2005, at 12:11:56
Maybe it's not such a big deal after all. Just another stupid phobia.
Eurotophobia refers to an abnormal and persistent fear of female genitalia
Kolpophobia refers to an abnormal and persistent fear of genitals, particularly female.
I can just add it to my emetophobia, and forget about having found the holy grail.
Posted by Tamar on May 4, 2005, at 3:16:28
In reply to Oh great. There's a name for it., posted by Dinah on May 4, 2005, at 0:04:14
> Maybe it's not such a big deal after all. Just another stupid phobia.
>
> Eurotophobia refers to an abnormal and persistent fear of female genitalia
>
> Kolpophobia refers to an abnormal and persistent fear of genitals, particularly female.
>
> I can just add it to my emetophobia, and forget about having found the holy grail.
>Do these words describe people's feelings about their own bodies? Or are they conditions primarily suffered by men in relation to The Other (i.e. the female)? Just wondering. I looked them up but couldn't find out much.
Posted by gardenergirl on May 4, 2005, at 13:37:51
In reply to Re: Oh great. There's a name for it. » Dinah, posted by Tamar on May 4, 2005, at 3:16:28
I'm guessing they won't show up in the the "Pop-Up Book of Phobias".
That would be a bit er, well...Let's just say it would change the whole tone of the book.
;)
Dinah, does it help to have a name for it? That means you aren't the only one. Or does that make it more annoying?
Posted by Dinah on May 4, 2005, at 15:13:44
In reply to Re: Oh great. There's a name for it., posted by gardenergirl on May 4, 2005, at 13:37:51
I feel hopeless. I really thought I was on to something. It felt like it had significance.
I can't really publicly discuss all of it, and I don't really know all of it, but it seemed pregnant with meaning, and it seemed to tie soooo many things about a number of my dysfunctional thoughts and behaviors together.
Now it feels like "just" another senseless phobia.
Posted by gardenergirl on May 4, 2005, at 15:32:19
In reply to Re: Oh great. There's a name for it. » gardenergirl, posted by Dinah on May 4, 2005, at 15:13:44
You know, even if there is a name for it, what it means to you is the key. And I think it is very meaningful to you. Don't let a label diminish what you need to work on.
((((dinah))))
gg
Posted by crushedout on May 4, 2005, at 15:33:55
In reply to Re: Oh great. There's a name for it. » Dinah, posted by gardenergirl on May 4, 2005, at 15:32:19
Posted by JenStar on May 4, 2005, at 20:28:05
In reply to Re: Oh great. There's a name for it. » gardenergirl, posted by Dinah on May 4, 2005, at 15:13:44
Dinah,
it doesn't need to be senseless. If it's important to you, it's definitely worth pursuing! The fact that it's already defined (sort of) might make you feel less alone with it, no? At least it means that other people have struggled with the same thing; you're not the only one. There might be people out there who really get what you're going thru, and hopefully sex therapists who understand it enough to help.Anyway, I think it's important to realize that it's only one part of you, and not the most important part. Regardless of how you feel about anatomy or sex, you're still a neat and interesting person who is raising a great son and making her way in this world. :) But I hope you can solve any issues that you want solved...
take care,
JenStar
Posted by Dinah on May 4, 2005, at 21:22:56
In reply to Re: Oh great. There's a name for it. » Dinah, posted by JenStar on May 4, 2005, at 20:28:05
But after feeling so blocked today, I prayed for clarity. I don't pray that often, and never for actions, but I feel comfortable enough praying for strength or in this case clarity.
And I think I got a bit.
While it's true that I have a whole constellation of issues that can and may have something to do with this issue, I may also be expecting too much from it.
So I'll work on it, even though the urgency is gone. I've got some ideas.
Posted by Dinah on May 4, 2005, at 21:24:52
In reply to I'm a bit embarassed to admit this, posted by Dinah on May 4, 2005, at 21:22:56
And you'll never guess what my homework is tonight. :O
Posted by pinkeye on May 4, 2005, at 21:33:09
In reply to I'm a bit embarassed to admit this, posted by Dinah on May 4, 2005, at 21:22:56
Are you saying you are embarassed about praying? Why? Prayer is a very helpful way of coping up with stress and confusion.
I do pray almost everyday.. And to have this inherent trust in someone more capable than us, gives us more confidence and optimism than any human being ever could.
I didn't have faith initially.. but then I cultivated it and made prayers a part of my regular schedule, simply becuase I think it gives us a lot of mental strength and clarity. And really, people talk about having that inner togetherness, and being able to satisfy themselves fully irrespective of external cirumstances. I think it is much easier to achieve that if you identify with God.
Posted by Dinah on May 7, 2005, at 9:31:01
In reply to Re: I'm a bit embarassed to admit this » Dinah, posted by pinkeye on May 4, 2005, at 21:33:09
I think I'm a bit uncomfortable talking about my spirituality on Babble, perhaps particularly on the Psychology Board. I know it makes some people feel uncomfortable, and I don't like to do that. And I've always had the perception, true or not, that Dr. Bob created the Faith Board to protect the rest of Babble from expressions of spirituality.
I'm not uncomfortable in real life, because almost everyone where I live openly declares a spiritual life of some sort or another and religion and spirituality are a not uncommon topic of conversation.
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