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Posted by Camille Dumont on November 29, 2003, at 14:52:20
I feel so strange lately.
After about 2 weeks of feelin depressed, I have been feeling frustrated and in need for change.
I'm pissed at the doc for giving me Effexor without telling how addictive it is.
I feel its no longer working.
I want to stop taking medication ... Effexor or anything else for that matter.
I don't feel like going to therapy anymore.
I feel like resigning from my job.
I feel like running away.Anybody ever had a similar experience?
Can depression make you feel like that?
Or is it a sign that things are improving?
I'm confused...
Posted by fallsfall on November 29, 2003, at 17:44:04
In reply to Ever feel like letting everything go?, posted by Camille Dumont on November 29, 2003, at 14:52:20
I think depression can make you feel that way. Please don't stop your meds or your therapy without talking to your doctors!!!
Posted by DaisyM on November 29, 2003, at 23:43:04
In reply to Re: Ever feel like letting everything go? » Camille Dumont, posted by fallsfall on November 29, 2003, at 17:44:04
For sure depression can make you feel this way! Throwing everything away is extreme, you shouldn't make any decisions while feeling this way. I would recommend talking to your Therapist soon about this...sounds like the beginnings of Holiday overwhelm to me!
Posted by mair on November 30, 2003, at 10:51:21
In reply to Re: Ever feel like letting everything go?, posted by DaisyM on November 29, 2003, at 23:43:04
I feel like running away lots which I take as a more positive sign since the running away fantasy doesn't involve self harm or suicide. For me its part and parcel of feeling overwelmed - you can't handle everything so you want to handle nothing. In darker times, I would think of a psychiatric hospital as being a place where I didn't have to take (or avoid) any phone calls. Mostly I think I sometimes want to be totally inaccessible.
In a lot of old movies, the female protagonist storms off with the ending retort "I'll send for my things." How nice to be able to leave quite as easily as that.
Mair
Posted by zenhussy on November 30, 2003, at 11:09:27
In reply to Re: Ever feel like letting everything go?, posted by mair on November 30, 2003, at 10:51:21
> In a lot of old movies, the female protagonist storms off with the ending retort "I'll send for my things." How nice to be able to leave quite as easily as that.
> MairMair,
I could have used that line once or twice in my life. Alas, the drama of my life isn't anywhere near as entertaining as some old Hollywood cinematic tale. Great line.
zh
Posted by Poet on December 1, 2003, at 9:01:43
In reply to Ever feel like letting everything go?, posted by Camille Dumont on November 29, 2003, at 14:52:20
Hi Camille,
I've been in your running shoes many times.
I've come close to quitting therapy (she always talks me out of it.) Two weeks ago I talked to my doctor about quitting Paxil. She increased my dose which so far hasn't done anything.
She told me if I do decide to quit taking it to call her and she'll tell me how to reduce the dose gradually. I shouldn't quit all at once. Definitely talk to your doctor if you quit Effexor.
Is there an island for misfit people, like the island for misfit toys? I reserve space under a palm tree.
Poet
Posted by Camille Dumont on December 1, 2003, at 11:15:15
In reply to Re: Ever feel like letting everything go? » Camille Dumont, posted by Poet on December 1, 2003, at 9:01:43
Thank for your reply ... its nice to see I'm not alone on the boat.
I'm sort of lucky because my therapist is nice but my doctor is a total idiot.
Last time I went in he basically asked me if I wanted to a) stop the Seroquel, b)keep going like it was or c) increase the dosage.
HELLO????
Who's the one with Dr. in front of his name? He made it sound like it didn't matter although it turned me into a zombie. So I just quit one day ... good thing it has no side effects.
Unfortunately, the same cannot be said for Effexor and I'm sort of afraid to talk to him about it. The main reason I feel its not working is that I'm crying for no reason and I feel suicidal daily ... I'm afraid that if I tell him that I'll end up with another evaluation at the Psy. Hospital and / or a trip to the ER. Both of which I hated.
Its so insane (no pun intended) that the system scares us into lying. I mean when I saw the pdoc at the Psy Hosp. I never would have told him about my visual hallucinations and SI because I was totally scared of being kept there since they make you sign a form that says you agree to be treated BEFORE they tell you what they think you have and how to go about "curing" it (if there is such a thing).
Save me a space on that beach will ya?
Posted by mair on December 1, 2003, at 11:35:26
In reply to Re: Ever feel like letting everything go?, posted by Camille Dumont on December 1, 2003, at 11:15:15
Camille - I am a person who generally avoids meds changes because the changeover is so awful for me, even when I've changed over to a drug that ends up being effective. I have little tolerance for side effects. However, I've also come to realize that sometimes very small adjustments can make a huge difference. A couple of years ago I had started taking serzone, prescribed by a new pdoc (for me). I had a horrible time with it and my mood was steadily deteriorating. I didn't want to contact my pdoc because I was afraid she'd take me off it and I really wanted to give it the best chance I could. However, I kept getting increasingly suicidal and my therapist kept bugging me about contacting my pdoc particularly since the worst of the deterioration, in her view, occurred after I started serzone. Under some duress, I finally emailed my pdoc. Her sole suggestion was that I simply take my dose at a different time of day. This made a HUGE difference. Ultimately, we dropped this drug because it never really did anything positive for me, but the slight adjustment we made to dosing times at least stopped the deterioration which was probably partially drug-related to begin with. The point of all of this is that I've been surprised on many occasions to discover that the reaction I got from a pdoc or therapist was different from the reaction I expected. I think sometimes we presume too much.
Also understand that when you are depressed, it's easy to talk yourself into the notion that the most obvious things won't help, or can't be done. I know with me, everything seems so much more complicated when I'm not feeling well.
Mair
Posted by zenhussy on December 1, 2003, at 11:43:38
In reply to Re: Ever feel like letting everything go? » Camille Dumont, posted by mair on December 1, 2003, at 11:35:26
> Also understand that when you are depressed, it's easy to talk yourself into the notion that the most obvious things won't help, or can't be done. I know with me, everything seems so much more complicated when I'm not feeling well.
> MairMair,
I know that when I'm in the midst of a depressive episode things don't just seem more complicated---they are! I'm at such a disadvantage with coping skills when depression takes me down that I wonder how I've survived this long.
I know the negative thinking that comes along with each episode makes everything seem impossible to overcome. That is one of the more challenging aspects of the pit of depression.
I'm glad you were willing to work with your therapist and pdoc to change the timing of your dose. Amazing what a tiny change can do!
So nice to see your name around here with regularity again. Perhaps I might stick around too for a bit....
zenhussy
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