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Posted by sienna on October 18, 2002, at 16:32:47
hi
im feeling agitated and suicidal and depressed. but usually the depression is really lethargivc, but this time i almost manicly depressed if that makes any sense. anyways, im feeling kind of suicidal and very very impulsive to the point that im geting close to doing something but feeling relaly detached from it or out of control. Have any of you felt this impulsiveity or feeling removed from the situation at all and what did you do about it? I tryign not to go anywhere becuase i feel dangerous.
Sienna
Posted by jyl on October 18, 2002, at 16:35:51
In reply to agitated suicidal depression, posted by sienna on October 18, 2002, at 16:32:47
take you own advice sweety and go to the er!
Posted by sienna on October 18, 2002, at 16:40:40
In reply to Re: agitated suicidal depression » sienna, posted by jyl on October 18, 2002, at 16:35:51
hehe, you are right, but i dont feel like im going
to act on it right this second. well im inside. thats what im doing right now im staying inside. i have to deal withit on my own right now and if i cant go to the hospital because of obligations than im probably not going to do antying and if i feel that close i will go, but im looking for a way to fix it at home. thanks for writing its nice to know someone is out there.
sienna
Posted by jyl on October 18, 2002, at 17:10:54
In reply to Re: agitated suicidal depression, posted by sienna on October 18, 2002, at 16:40:40
i crochet constantly at home.
i paint
sew
carve wood(but i had to put the knives away for a bit)
and i have 5 kids.
i am so busy but always find the time to cry..
pace the house..
be completely agitated for hours...
be frantic..
pull my hair out...
the list goes on....
god i need a drink!-have to wait for hubby to get home for my booze because i wont leave the house.
cheers!
jyl
Posted by Dinah on October 18, 2002, at 17:57:06
In reply to Re: agitated suicidal depression, posted by sienna on October 18, 2002, at 16:40:40
My pdoc's advice was to have someone with you if you don't want to go to the hospital. Is there someone you can call to stay with you until the worst of the urges are over? If not, is there someone you can call to talk to on the phone?
During my postpartum depression, I would strap my baby in a Snugli and just walk and walk. There was nothing that I could kill myself with on the walk. But being in the house tormented me with possibilities.
Posted by judy1 on October 18, 2002, at 19:10:16
In reply to agitated suicidal depression, posted by sienna on October 18, 2002, at 16:32:47
do you have bipolar disorder? because what you are describing sounds like a mixed episode, and they are probably one of the worst states I have felt. you really do need to speak to your therapist or pdoc and not be alone. I sincerely hope this passes soon. take care, judy
Posted by sienna on October 18, 2002, at 19:28:14
In reply to Re: agitated suicidal depression » sienna, posted by judy1 on October 18, 2002, at 19:10:16
hi i dont know what i have. the doctor said schizoaffective but i dont know if its bipolar or just depressive... i called him and he said i might be getting akasthesia a side effect from the geodon. So im going to take some cogentin and hope for the best. I dont think im going to kill myslef i just feel horrible and antsy. and lonely. I might try to go ride my bike around but thats what i was doign when i was afraid id ride into traffic. I dont know.
its wierd this disease. its always changing or maybe thats the medicines making me feel this way.
sienna
Posted by sienna on October 18, 2002, at 19:30:24
In reply to Re: agitated suicidal depression, posted by jyl on October 18, 2002, at 17:10:54
all those projects sound like they help. i should try to find something to do. i feel like im being suffocated. i want to cut really bad but i cant. i dont want to deal with the stigma and the feelings i get later. i think i should try to eat something.
sienna
Posted by sienna on October 18, 2002, at 19:32:17
In reply to Re: agitated suicidal depression » sienna, posted by Dinah on October 18, 2002, at 17:57:06
i cant bother my friends right now, they are all going through so much. my one friend i can bother wont be home until late. but he will probably hang with me when he can. I dont knwo really who i can be with right now. some friends are goign to a movie tonite and maybe i can make it through that. my pdoc is on call this weekend so i can call him if it gets really bad.
SIenna
p.s. thanks for all of your help everybuddy
Posted by Dinah on October 18, 2002, at 21:01:30
In reply to Re: agitated suicidal depression, posted by sienna on October 18, 2002, at 19:30:24
Yes, I'm trying not to self injure any more myself, due to a not very well thought out promise to my therapist.
Can I suggest something a bit odd that works for me, although I don't know if it would work for anyone else. I curl up on the floor of my sliding door closet with a shelf midway up. I just barely fit, and the feeling of being closely held (without the physical stimulation of actually being held) sometimes helps a lot. I just did that (along with taking an extra half klonopin) and also did some meditation in the closet. I'm feeling better now.
Please stay safe and take care.
Dinah
Posted by Ginjoint on October 19, 2002, at 20:33:26
In reply to agitated suicidal depression, posted by sienna on October 18, 2002, at 16:32:47
Hey Sienna....
Dinah mentioned physically getting in close quarters to feel as if she were being held to help get over an episode like what you're going through. I kind of do the same thing -- I wrap myself very tightly in a soft blanket. The snugness can be very soothing. It helps me. It's not a solution to the big problems, but maybe it can help get you through the darker hours. Just a small idea.
Ginjoint
Posted by Sienna on October 20, 2002, at 0:30:18
In reply to Re: agitated suicidal depression, posted by Ginjoint on October 19, 2002, at 20:33:26
hi im trying some of these things its just so hard to hold still at all. but i talked to my doctor and he told me of a few different meds i can try that i already have. so i tried one and its not working yet, but i have 2 more options and i see him on monday. i just have to make it to monday.
thanks for writing me. i did finally eat somethign and i think that helped a little bit. im going to try to watch a movie and hide in my room.
sienna
Posted by k9lover on November 1, 2002, at 7:58:27
In reply to Re: agitated suicidal depression, posted by Ginjoint on October 19, 2002, at 20:33:26
This is nice to know - I've wondered if I'm the only person in the world who curls up in cramped spaces and waits for episodes to pass. Sometimes that's the only not harmful option I can grasp.
As for going to the ER, I let my gut decide - when it feels weird and stressed and I feel dizzy, it's time to get some help. My pdoc said last night that I can even tell the ER that he sent me.
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